A thick line between love and hate (editing and on hold)

Chapter 5: gonna stay strong

Stay strong, make them wonder how you're still smiling
-immateenager_dealwithit
I chose the song skyscraper up in the media section because this song holds so much meaning, it's telling you that no matter how hard the situation might be, no matter how much your hurting, screaming for it to go away... You are strong, no matter what happens you must never give up. It means no matter how much something or someone is breaking you Apart, tearing you piece by piece, you will fight and you will win, they can try as hard as they possibly can, but in the end you will be the one still standing strong.

For all of those out there, hurting, and slowly breaking, YOU ARE STRONG! you can get yourself through it, don't EVER think for a second that it is over for you, do NOT loose faith in yourself, you will come out braver, stronger, better than you ever were before. Because at the end of the dark tunnel, there will be light, the light that you have created, the light of your accomplishment, the light you have brought. DO NOT EVER GIVE UP. THE PAIN WILL COME TO AN END!.
-Priyanka535

Hey my beauties,
Here is another update for ya'll. it's been so long since I last updated and I'm sorry for keeping you guys waiting long
But please keep in mind what my message above is telling you
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Summer-rose P.O.V

Keep your head down Summer... Avoid trouble, I repeat, avoid trouble...my subconscious tells me.
"More like avoid the devil's spawn" I quietly mumbled under my breath. With a reluctant sigh I once again enter through hell's gate. At this point I feel like bolting out of Princeton. Runing, as fast as I can far far away from this school... From him. I don't understand how one person can be so cruel and so full of anger, how can he be the devil,yet look like an angel at the same time? Well I guess the devil was once an angel too.

I begging to walk down the crowded corridor and I feel my insides turn inside out. I just wish the ground would give way and swallow me whole. As I'm walking, I can feel the cold hard stares directed at me, I can see the daggers being thrown at me from people's eyes. I feel unwanted. I can hear their whispers echoing all around me and I feel sick to the stomach. "Hey look, that's that new wanna-be girl from the cafeteria" some one calls out. The crowd erupts in laughter. I feel anger boiling inside me. If it wasn't for that scholarship I got, I wouldn't have been in this stupid dam mess!.
"Heyy that's my cake" someone else calls in a extremely whinny high pitched voice, and once again, everyone erupts into laughter.

Tears threaten to spill but my attempts to hold them back seem useless as one escapes and rolls down my cheek. "Is the big girl crying now" a group of girls coo at me in humour. I quickly wipe away the tear and block the insults being thrown at me,
I'm stronger than that, I'm not going to show any signs of weakness. All this drama because of one spoilt rich kid is just too ridiculous. He may have the whole school wrapped around his finger but he will never have me.

I begin to walk away when suddenly I am greeted with a pair of electric green eyes staring down at me. He's height somewhat intimidating as he towers over my small frame. He just looks at me with a completely blank look. I don't know what to say or do. I must look like a complete idiot standing there Infront of him. Should I be yelling? Screaming? Crying? I have know idea, I'm frozen, how could he be so cruel. I just don't get why he has so much hate for me. Get a hold on yourself Summer, don't be weak.
Before he gets a chance to speak and insult me any further I walk away. I don't even spare him a glance back, afraid of what might happen. I can feel his eyes on me creating holes straight through me. I will not let his ego get the best of me.

I decide to waste no more time and get to my first class for the day. I look at my schedule and groan. Why do I always have to have history class first every morning. Ugh this school is going to kill me before I even get a chance to live.

When I enter the class room I instantly spot Vanessa, "Summer, hey I saved you a spot next to us" she patted the seat next to her table. The tables were set up in rows and were for two people, I silently contemplated weather or not to sit and risk someone unpleasant sitting next to me... Oh what the hell with it. I flashed her a smile, and received a very warm smile back. "So, Sumer, I'm having this party this weekend at our house, it would be awesome for you to come"
"Umm, I don't know Vanessa" I really don't want to say no to her but I don't think it's a very good idea showing up to the party but being absolutely unwanted by the rest of the house members... Jaxson. I really don't want to face him ever again, his hatred for me is just so bitter, so strong, I just don't understand why.
"Come on please, you have to come" she said with hope in her eyes. "Yeah it will be fun" Chelsea, Kim, and Scott said in unison with hopeful looks.
Oh god what do I do now? I can't say no to them, ugh I really don't want to face that arrogant jerk of a prick Jaxson.
I can't say no to them, especially Vanessa and how hopeful she looks, I'm truly grateful that I met her.
" ahhh, yeh alright I'll come" I said with a sigh of defeat. "Eeeeekk, yay!! This is great summer!! But we have to go dress shopping first! I'll pick you up at 10 on Saturday" I gave her a big smile and laughed at her happiness.
Oh boy, the party should be interesting. Our group chatted a little bit till the professor came in and silenced everyone.

I immediately turned my focus to the task we had been set. Only a quarter way through my notes my heart started to beat faster and butterflies arose in my stomach, it was like the feeling I always got when Jaxson was near. I took a deep breath in a squeezed my eyes shut, praying for the sensation to go away. The feelings seemed to get worst as my palms felt sweaty and my whole body felt like collapsing. My eyes shot open as I heard the empty chair being pulled out beside me, my heart started pounding faster and faster, I felt as though I couldn't breath. This can not be seriously happening, why me? Am I like cursed or something?

I couldn't help but turn my head only to be met with a pair of cold green eyes staring at down at me. His expression cold, blank and hard. I instantly felt small, it was like I was suddenly shrinking. I wanted to run away, far far away. His gaze seemed to pin me down to my seat, I was completely paralysed. Was he going to yell at me? Make fun of me? Insult me?

I hadn't realised what he was doing until I felt a warm hand grab my wrist. He was being so gentle, as if I was something so fragile. I winced slightly shutting my eyes tightly as his thumb traced over the exposed heavily bruised skin that the long sleeve shirt failed to conceal. It had bruised over completely, in the shape of his large hand covering over my small wrist leaving my skin tender and sore to even lightly touch. I slowly opened my eyes to find him studying me closely, I watched as his Adam's apple bobbed as he swallowed hard. I immediately withdrew my wrist from his warm touch. A small crease appeared in between his eyebrows as a frown was replaced with his straight face that leaked out absolutely no clues of what he's thinking. He stared at me as his bottom lip was drawn into a small pout. His pink full lips so tempting and inviting.

Before my feelings could get the best of me, I turned my focus away from him towards my paper completely ignoring him as I continued with my notes on the past founders of the country. The lesson was a slow tortuous experience as I constantly felt eyes on me. I knew exactly who's gaze was constantly on me, erupting butterflies in my stomach, but I just couldn't look at him and give him the satisfaction of knowing the effect he has on me, because that would be basically telling him that I'm weak. I am stronger than that, he can hate me all he wants for all I care. I won't show him the signs that he wants to see. Ugh I'm just waiting for this class to be over.
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How was that chapter guys?
I can tell you that there will be a real heated scene in the next chapter coming up.
I promise I will do my best to make you guys feel fireworks as you're reading to make up for the extremely long wait on this update. I know there wasn't much going on between
Jaxson and Summer but I assure you that the next chapter will get spiced up.
Thank you so much for reading
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