Milk & Cookies

JK&You

11:53pm

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Kahit na mukhang hinahabol ng plantsa ang damit ko, dali-dali akong sumakay ng sasakyan dahil magiging late na ako sa importanteng appointment ko.

I looked at my watch and saw that there are some time left so I stopped by at the flower shop to buy her favorite flowers

It's been a week but it felt like years for me, a hell week na hindi ko siya pwedeng makita, a week na kahit sa telepono hindi ko siya pwedeng makausap, and a week na hindi ko siya makasama. It is just a week pero sobrang miss ko na siya.

I cancelled all my schedule for today just for her. I can do anything for her even if it's giving up my career as an idol, ganun ko siya kamahal.

Ganun din naman siya sakin noon, she was my die-hard fangirl. She told me that she used to buy all of our group's poster,merchandise,albums, and anything related to our group. She told me things how she earn money just to attend our concert. She told me that whenever she see a new oppa, she kept on apologizing on our poster because she feels like she's cheating on me. She also told me that she used to scream her lungs out during our concerts. She also proclaimed that im his husband back then.

Reminiscing the past makes me smile on how hard she fell for me before, even now since she's not my fangirl anymore, she's my woman, the love of my life, my first and last love.

I hurriedly ran to her room as soon as I arrived. I'm so excited to see my love again.

I opened the door and saw her standing by the window, looking at the view outside. She still haven't notice my presence so I gave her a back hug. Even though she is wearing a hospital gown, she still look gorgeous.

She turned her head,give me a peck on the lips, and smiled.

"I miss you", I said as I hugged her tighter

"I love you", she said while looking from the window i replyed her 'I love you' with a kiss on her cheeks which made her smile a bit.

I grab her hand and led her to the hospital bed and gave her the flowers that I bought earlier. She smiled again but this time gave me a weak smile that made me worried

"Are you hurt somewhere? Should I call the nurse? Tell me honey, don't just endure the pain by smiling", I ask worriedly. I don't want to see her suffering like this.

My wife is suffering from a severe genetic disease and lahat ng doctor na pinuntahan namin all said the same thing, they are still looking for cure but as time passes she is slowly getting weaker. I don't even know how she manage to stand up and walk to the window by herself.

And for a week I couldn't reach her because the doctors forbid her from having visitors and using a phone

Pinahiga ko na siya. "I love you" she said once again with a tone as if she is bidding goodbye.

"Hey, be strong ok? We will still do what normal couples do. There are still many things to do left on your  list, remember? Stay strong, ok!"

She smiled and closed her eyes. I caress her hair and started to sing

[Don't think of anything
Don't say anything, not even a word
Just give me a smile

I still can't believe it
All of this seems like a dream
Don't try to disappear
Is it true? Is it true?
You you

You're so beautiful, that I'm scared

Untrue untrue
You you you

Will you stay by my side
Will you promise me

If I let go of your hand, you'll fly away and break
I'm scared scared scared of that

Will you stop time
If this moment passes
As though it hadn't happened
I'm scared scared scared I'll lose you

Butterfly, like a butterfly
Just like a butterfly bu butterfly]

After a few minutes, I heard a long beep from the monitor.

Nagpapanic na ako. What is happening to her?

Agad-agad kong tinawag ang nurse at maya-maya pa ay nagsipasukan na pati mga doctor niya. The next thing I knew ay nasa labas na ako ng ICU.

'Oh God please take care of her, don't take her away from me yet'.

With both of my arms resting on my knees, I prayed. I prayed hard.

After an hour of waiting, finally lumabas din yung doctor. With a gloomy face, the doctor looked at me but a part of me is still expecting a good result.

"I'm sorry but she is gone"

After the doctor uttered those words parang wala na akong naintindihan sa explanation niya sa nangyari sa surgery.

Hindi din magregister sa utak ko na wala na siya. I can't accept it—no,I don't want to accept it. Ni hindi ko man lang nasabi na mahal ko din siya.

She's gone. My heart is like crumbling into pieces,tortured a hundred times, and being pierced with thousand needles.

What is life without her?—

*SNAP*

I opened my eyes. Where am I? I rose up and felt tears in my eyes. Why am I crying? Oh– right, I'm in my room

And I had a bad dream but it felt so real

"JUNGKOOK HURRY UP! OPEN THIS DOOR!", said namjoon hyung.

I can hear the hyungs from outside knocking my door and it looks like it's going to break any moment

"Wait a minute!", I said and hurriedly grabbed a shirt. I opened the door and saw them smiling

What? Is there something on my face?

That's when I noticed that there she is. The girl in my dream. I quickly ran to her and hugged her.

"Ami", I said and hug her so tight for her to know that I don't want to lose her and that I'm her man. The man who will protect her and be with her for the rest of her life. Feeling shocked and confused, she hugged me too.

I'm so scared because of that nightmare but her hugging me back took all of those fears away.

"I love you too" I said because you have to say this words before it's too late.