Nothing Lasts Forever [5SOS] (On Hold)

Chapter 10

My feet spun to the sound of Ashton saying my name and I felt my heart flutter, "H-Hi Ashton." I pulled loose strands of hair out my face, I hope I didn't look like crap since I was looking for Lux like crazy. Its been a couple days since I properly hung out with Ashton, and to be honest, it was kind of killing me. I thought that staying away from them - him - would make Louis realise that I felt safe with him since he's my only brother.

"Want to get some drinks before we leave the arena tonight?" I felt my heart beat fast and I opened my mouth, but words didn't seem to flow out, I had embarrassed myself way to much in the past months since we started tour and I really didn't want to embarrass myself. I didn't understand why I felt shaken up whenever Ashton was around me.

I nodded my head and smiled at him, everything seemed to be in slow motion, the way he blinked seemed so beautifully: so slow but still maintaining a perfect smile. His smile made me feel better.

"Great! Give me a sec, I'll just change my shirt," Ashton said planting a kiss on my forehead, sending chills throughout my whole body. "I want to go Ash!" Michael screamed as Ashton went inside their dressing room. Ashton nodded his head and then winked at me. I squealed so loud, he probably heard.

It's not everyday Ashton Irwin winks at you.

I really like him, and I wasn't sure on where we stood. Did he consider me his girlfriend? The last time I questioned what we were, Louis screamed pathetically at my face and I almost passed out, which I did later on.

Ashton came out with another pair of jeans, without tears on the knees. He had a blue shirt on and I couldn't see what it said since his jean jacket covered it, his beautiful golden hair was covered with a black beanie and I couldn't help but admire his beautiful face, and how his shirt made his eyes look green.

I wanted to punch myself in the face, I had advantages of being Louis' sister; I got noticed by thee Ashton Irwin. I liked him, and he seemed to like me back. We wanted to leave the arena, but it turned out that fans were already lining up for the show later on. "Michael, Ashton, and Jai, I'm sorry but those doors are not for you guys," Paul gestured to us to leave back to the parking lot under the arena, this meant we couldn't go to our little date, it upset me, but it seemed to upset Ashton and Michael equally that they wouldn't go outside through the front entrances. But they seemed to have different plans.

"I'm going to meet fans," Ashton said and Michael agreed, Paul was already walking away, his heavy boats echoed around the halls, when suddenly the noise stopped. Uh-oh.

"No way! Na-ah! I'm sorry boys but I'm going to disagree with you on that. I don't want to risk anything, and if you do, it's trouble. Not only for you but for everyone who is apart of Take Me Home tour, the arena, and especially me. I am in charge of you boys, and if I don't met the expectations of the tour we will probably get kicked out of the arena. Do you want to perform here in the future?" Paul asked sternly.

"Yes, but without the fans, playing here in the fur-" Ashton was cut off by Paul.

"I see what you're trying to say, but the arena has a very strict policy and we have to obey them." Paul scrunched his nose and added, "I know the fans mean bloody much to you, but you have to be concerned for your safety and their safety. If someone thing happens to you I reckon they will lose their heads." Paul's accent was so audible and I wanted to laugh so hard at how much he wanted to convince Ashton but all I could notice was his accent.

I was pretty sure Michael was only focused at how ridiculous Paul sounded, literally. Ashton finally gave up and told Paul he wouldn't meet fans outside the arena. Ashton quickly intertwined with my fingers causing me to blush terribly. "I feel like a third wheel," Michael complained and I laughed. "Hey! You wanted to come," Ashton laughed making a silly face.

"Oh, yeah huh. I forgot," Michael shook his head and added, "Well can Luke and Calum come? I don't want to be alone anymore." Ashton nodded his head in approval and then leaned in to kiss me, which I was pretty sure I didn't kiss him back I was in shock. I decided to kiss him back and it was amazing, once again, I didn't feel a spark but I liked it. I was with the boy that I loved.
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"I'll have a medium caramel frappe with whip cream," I told the lady at the counter.
"Anything else?" I shook my head no.
"What's your name," she asked politely. "Jai," I smiled at her.

I was the last to take my order and the boys sat at a semi-circled booth. Luke sat across from me and he was just scrolling away on his phone, next to him sat Michael and next to Michael sat Calum, and of course Ashton sat next to me. We all started talking about tour and how my brother and his boys were planning events for all of us to get together at least 3 times a month.

How come I didn't know this? I was always left behind on everything, why couldn't someone tell me about this! This is very, very, very unfair!

"Oh what are they planning," I said losing my kindness, how? I felt left out! Mom sent me here for a reason, and if I was left out on what was occurring, what was the whole point of leaving home if I was being ignored here as well!

"Well they want to spend their free time with us-," Michael cut off Calum.

"Yeah! They want to have a paint ball war! I seriously can't wait for that," he smiled widely and clapped his hands together. I felt better because a few hours ago, he was freaking out about losing baby Lux and now he was so happy.

I was feeling it, it was that time again. mood swings were around the corner, again.

"They're also planning on playing football," Calum added nudging Michael.

I felt bad for Luke, he didn't even talk, why was he so distant from them? Or was it because he wasn't used to being with other people besides the boys? Or was it because he just a didn't like me?

The cashier lady called out our names all at the same time and Luke said he would get our drinks for us and that's when I decided to be real - while he was gone - ironic - -.

"Why is Luke acting like that?" I blurt out as Luke tried to carry all the drinks from the counter.

"I-I don't know what you're trying to say?" Ashton said, more like a question.

"I mean, don't you think he hasn't been himself lately - well I don't really know him - but he's been acting really weird," I looked over my shoulder to still see Luke struggling trying to get the five drinks at the counter.

"Luke seems his normal self, I honestly don't think anythings wrong with him," Michael said knitting his eyebrows, and Calum just shook his head due to the fact that he didn't find anything weird about luke.

"Well, he was very sweet to me, and now - now - he's constantly ignoring me! Like this morning, he left me there when my shoelace got stuck to the ladder on the tour bu-" Luke's yelling cut me off.

"Hey, guys a little help here?" Luke yelled from the front on the shop, he giggled nervously, why didn't they give him a little tray?

"You see, perfect little Luke," Michael shrugged and left to help Luke out.

I looked over to him, he had the beautifulest smile plastered on his perfectly sculpted face, and I couldn't help but wonder; was he - they were - hiding something from me, but then again, how can he get used to someone like me in two months. I pushed away all the negative thoughts.

But I wasn't satisfied.

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I'm such a bookoholic; I post to many stories and I don't even upload for none. I'm very sorry! Hope this was a nice chapter, I've been working on the ending of this, and I know that's really bad for me bc then I get super distracted. OMF, Have I honestly not uploaded since October? Woah. Really sorry. My last update of the year!