𝐒𝐔𝐑𝐅 𝐍 𝐓𝐔𝐑𝐅

NINE.

▃ 1962, July 21st, 12:17 PM

! SMUT WARNING NEAR THE END !

It had been a week since Jungkook last saw Taehyung, unfortunately walking in on him fucking another man. It certainly wasn't what he was expecting, and the image of a naked Taehyung was stuck in his mind for the rest of the night, causing him to have another wet dream.

He felt sick from picturing a man that way, to the point where he had doubled over in front of his toilet and threw up the contents of his stomach.

He had been having conflicting feelings all week. He was angry at Taehyung, yet he didn't know what for. He was also sad, disgusted with himself, and tired.

The tiredness was due to staying up late every night overthinking about things, mainly about his emotions.

Why was he so angry? Why was Taehyung always on his mind? It drove him insane.

He briefly had the thought that he was jealous, but quickly he brushed it away. That couldn't be the case. Why would he be jealous? He has zero feelings for Taehyung. Zero. Nada. Zilch.

Jungkook decided to grab his journal and a pen, leaving his small house and hopping on his bike, pedalling down the street until the diner was in sight.

He parked his bike beside the diner, having it lean against the wood. He went inside, it wasn't very busy since it was only midday.

"Jungkook! What brings you here so early?" Jin asked from the kitchen window.

"Hi hyung, I'm just here to order a lemonade." He said with a smile, walking over.

"Coming right up." Jin stated with a smile, disappearing for a moment before coming back with an ice cold bottle of lemonade.

Jungkook placed a few crinkled dollar bills on the small counter in front of the window.

"Thanks hyung." He said.

"Any time, Gguk. Have a good day." He grinned.

Jungkook nodded and waved, turning to head out the door but as he neared it someone came barging in and bumped into him.

"Oh! So sorry about that." The guy said apologetically. His voice was slightly raspy but had a bounce to it.

"Babe!" Jin's voice called from the kitchen.

Jungkook glanced back curiously as the mystery guy went toward the kitchen and Jin came out from the kitchen door, attacking the guy in a tight hug.

The guy had a charming heart shaped smile, thin features and fluffy brown hair.

That must be the guy Jin's dating... what was his name again? Hoseok?

Jungkook watched them interact for a moment curiously, Hoseok's hands resting on Jin's waist and kissing him softly.

The sight made Jungkook flustered, but nonetheless sparked something happy and exhilarating inside of him. He quickly shook it off and left, grabbing his journal and pen from the basket of his bike and heading toward the water, finding a dry spot to sit in.

He opened his lemonade, hearing the satisfying pop it made as the bottlecap was unsealed.

He sipped the refreshing drink, perfectly balancing for the hot summer sun baring down on him.

He opened his journal and wrote the date on an empty page, sighing and beginning to write.

Lately I've been feeling different... and I can't pinpoint what it is. Ever since I met Taehyung, it feels like my life is spiralling. Like everything is changing, or is about to change. I can't explain it. I feel confused with myself, I feel lost, I feel like I'm in denial. But what am I denying? That's what I'm trying to figure out. I don't know what Taehyung has to do with it, except for the fact that he's constantly on my mind. Never fleeting, and it's not just that he pops up once or twice a day in my head, he's always there. It's driving me insane.