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CONTROLLED NIGHTMARE

Recently, lucid dreaming became a trend. I haven't tried nor experienced it. Tonight, I decided to do it. Para naman may ipagmayabang ako sa mga tropa ko. Palagi kasi nila iyang nababanggit sa mga jowa nila. Pero, kaya nga sa kanila ko nalang sasabihin dahil wala naman akong jowa. Pfft.

When the moon showed up in the night sky. I laid on my bed. Closed my eyes, I followed all the 'to do's'.

The next thing I knew, I found myself in my own dream. Laying in my bed. This is it!

I started imagining things that's far from reality. My dream house, my ideal girlfriend, wealth, popularity and all that stuff.

I enjoyed it. Not until. . .

A person came into my mind. It started bothering me, distracting me and ruining my dream. But wait, no, it's just my mind who's doing that. So technically, I can erase it.

I tried to think of other things and forget about that person. But, I failed.

That person started saying painful words that caused my heart and mind to be clouded with pain. But again, no, it's just my own mind who's torturing me.

I want to get out. My dream is now a mess. Just because of this specific person that's keep on coming up in my mind.

Then, I remembered the rules. Pinaikot ko ang paningin at salamat sa Diyos dahil nakakita ako ng ilaw. It's surely my ceiling's light.

I followed it, but, that person stopped me.

I can't control my own dream anymore. That person is beyond strong. It's now a nightmare.

This controlled nightmare is just like reality. That person was the reason for me to stop continuing my journey. That person discourages me. That person brings me down.

Then realization hit me. Even in this dream, it won't stop. Silly me, I don't even have friends. I just decided to do this because I expected that, when I'm here,  I will be free from the pain reality caused me.

I tried all my best to escape the truth, but it seems that I can't. Should I just give up?

This person in this dream, is me. It's just me who's stopping myself from continuing my own journey. It's just me who's discouraging myself. It's just myself that brings me down. I'm lacking confidence, I know.

I want to escape the truth where darkness, fear and sadness exist. But my suckin' reality keeps on bugging me. And even in this controlled fantasy, it won't stop hurting me. Damn, my life is fucked up.

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Savier Writes

-skyleiagh