He's My Light (Ma Lumière)

Chapter 10

*A few weeks later*

My life changes after Luke passed away. I was depressed and traumatized. Sometimes I would get flashbacks of the crash, at night, I would get nightmares of the crash and Luke leaving me. I woke up screaming for Luke.

My parents were worried about me. I was diagnosed with PTSD or Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. I wasn't feeling like myself at all. My parents, Shasha and even Caleb always check up on me and try to help me.

For the past weeks, I was in a deep grieve. I lost him, the love of my life. My parents informed the school about my condition, I'm still continuing my studies but through online.

It was a lot of work but I'm willing to face it. I'm not ready facing other people watching me with sympathy in their eyes.

I was completing my school work when Shasha texted me saying

"Hey, wanna hangout? With me and Caleb?"

I smiled weakly reading the text. Caleb asked Shasha to be his girlfriend a few days before the accident happened. I haven't been hanging out with any of them for weeks. Somehow I know and I can feel that Luke wouldn't want me to be like this. I texted her back

"Yeah sure. Rose's?"

"Yes, I'll pick you up in 30?"

"Okay"

I settled my school work for a couple of minutes then changed into something more casual. I took a look at myself in the mirror. I look different.

You can see the darker shade under my eyes. My skin was dull and seems exhausted. I took a deep breath and said to myself

"Start a new chapter, Shayna. He wants you to be happy. Enjoy your moment with your loved ones. You can do this"

I smiled at myself and decided to put on light makeup. About 10 minutes later, I heard a car honking at my house.

'That must be Shasha' I thought. I grabbed my bag and phone and went outside.

I saw Caleb's car with him and Shasha sitting on the front seat. I went inside his car and we drove away to Rose's.

We found our seat and started ordering our meal. Caleb looked at me and said, "You look good Shay, how are you feeling?"

Shasha nudged his side as if his question is offending me. I smiled at them, it was a weak smile but it was genuine

"I'm trying, it might be slow but I'm willing to try"

Shasha smiled at my words and rushed to my side and hugged me.

"It's okay, I'm glad that you are trying. I love you and I miss my best friend"

I smiled and said back

"I love you too"

We spent 30 minutes talking to each other while eating our meal. I looked around quite a lot. My mind went into Edward. I wondered where is him? I asked Shasha and Caleb

"Hey, I haven't seen Edward in a while now. Where is him?"

"Ohh, he's at New York now. He will be back tomorrow" said Caleb

"New York? What for?" I questioned Caleb

"He went with his father. His father is a businessman so he starting to show Edward around how to deal with clients and stuff" he said simply while enjoying his icecream.

I nodded.

"Shay, have you finish your manuscript?" asked Shasha

I gave her a confused look. She looked back at me surprisingly