He's My Light (Ma Lumière)

Chapter 13

I felt his breathing hovers towards mine, I was so nervous that I can hear my own heartbeat so rapidly at my eardrums. My gaze went on his face then, on his lips. His gaze went to mine, it was full of dark and desire, wanting and needing for each other. I remember I felt the exact way when my first kiss with Luke.

'Luke...'

I looked back at Edward, I saw him... Luke. I shut my eyes then open it once again, I came to the realization that I wasn't ready. I backed away from Edward. He noticed my gestures and his gaze went from dark to soft ones.

"I'm sorry, I... I can't.." I said, avoiding his gaze

He put his hand on mine, the gesture made me higher my gaze to his. He was smiling softly at me. "It's okay, I understand. I'm sorry I wasn't thinking straight..."

"No.. no, I would love to... it just too soon" I muttered sheepishly

He smirked at me "You would love to what?"

I widened my eyes 'did I just said that?' I felt heat rushing to my cheeks. He chuckled "You're cute," he said. It made me blush even more. He turned his head and looked up at the stars. I did the same.

"It's beautiful, isn't it?" he said.

I gazed at the light of the stars, smiled "It's stunning"

"Crazy isn't it how fucked up life can be but there's still so much beauty in it?" he claimed

"Someone told me once that life might be fucked up for you now but the beauty of it will soon come to you, so find your light to keep yourself together, belief in kindness, love and appreciate and learn every moment of life," I said, smiling

Edward turned his head to look at me and smiled "That's why we have to enjoy life and mess things up as far as we can. You only live once, right?"

I chuckled "YOLO it is"

He stands up then offering his hand to me "We should get back inside, it's getting cold here"

I nodded and took his hand. He locked our hands together and smiled at me then lead me to the living room. We went inside, Caleb accidentally bumped to me.

"Oh, I'm sorry, Shay. Are you okay?" Caleb said, putting his hands on my shoulder making sure that I am okay.

"It's okay, I'm okay," I said

Caleb dropped his hand and back off to let some space between us. His gaze went to mine then Edward then, to our hands that was still locked to each other. He smirked at me and Edward.

"Oh, I'm sure you're okay. Both of you, actually" Caleb said, that smirk was still on his face.

I was madly blushing and took my hand away from Edward's. Edward dropped his gaze at our hands when I was pulling my hand away. He chuckled then looked at Caleb "Where's Shasha?"

Caleb's smirk disappears "That is what I was wondering, have you guys seen her? I can't find her though" he said, looking around at the crowd.

"Bathroom?" Edward asked. Caleb shook his head "Nope, she's not there"

"Maybe she's in her room?" I said.

Caleb lit up "Yes yes, why haven't I thought about it? Thank you, Shay" then he quickly left me and Edward alone. I laughed at Caleb's reaction, Edward palm himself and said: "How on earth that he is even related to me?"

We both laughed. Caleb and Shasha have been together for 5 months now, I've to admit they are made for each other. The craziness just clicks on with them, they are the type of crazy that you need in life.

"I don't know, he is your cousin not mine," I said, jokingly putting my hands up.

"Lucky you, there was a time where he was looking for his phone but didn't notice that he already holding it in his hand. I mean, I love Caleb. He is like my brother but that lad is just something, Shay" he chuckled, messaging his temple

I laughed. Edward looked at me, in deep thought then snapped his finger "I just remember I've something that is yours actually," Edward said. I was about to ask him but, we both were interrupted by a woman. "Edward, dear...I've been looking for you"

The woman seems to be in her mid 40's but she's beautiful 'She must be Edward's mother...' but as I analyzed her features 'but she looks nothing like Edward...stepmom maybe?'

I cut off my thoughts then looked at Edward. He was looking at the woman then back at me "Oh yeah, mum this is my friend, Shayna. Shay, this is my mother." he addressed

'Oh, maybe he just looks more like his dad?'

Edward's mother smiled at me and hugged me "I'm sorry to interrupt both of you. But, we have to go, Edward. Your father is at the airport". Edward frowned then clenched his fist and jaw like he was trying to control his anger "What? Like right now? Isn't he has a driver or something?"

His mother sighed "Ed, he's your father, please not now"

I looked at Edward, I put on my hand on his arm and smiled "It's okay, I tell Shasha that you have to leave early.". He loosened his fist and relax a bit.

His eyes went from his mother to mine, he sighed "Okay fine. Wait for me at the car, mum." Mrs Wynne nodded and looked at me "I'm sorry we had to meet like this, Shayna but it was nice to meet you finally".

'Finally?'.I just nodded and smiled then she left.

Edward turned to me, grabbed my hand and softly stroked it "I'm sorry, I've to leave now. Tell Caleb, I'll text him later".

I nodded "It's okay, I'll tell him," I said, smiling softly at him. He smiled at me then pecked me on the cheek "I'll see you later, Shay" he whispered at my ear.

He looked at me in the eyes then he left. I couldn't help but felt empty after he left the party. After months in despair, talking to Edward made me feel better. I never felt this way with Luke. Edward, he is a darker version of Luke but full of affection, trust and mystery. I want to know more... I couldn't help it

'What's with this man?'