I Have A Say Too (AU)

Chapter one: waking up

I can feel the light of the sun shining down on my bare back. I can see the light through my closed lids. I forgot to close the blinds before I fell asleep last night, nothing I can do about it now. I slowly open my eyes adjusting to the bright light shining in my face. I turn around sitting up, and hear my bones shift back into place. Running my hands over my face to rid myself of the sleep I wish to get more of, I swing my legs out of bed.

I make my way down stairs hearing the angelic voice of my boyfriend. I walk into the kitchen as he quickly shoves his phone back in his pocket. I frown, who was he talking to and why did he hang up do fast?

He turns and faces me. "hey baby sleep well?" he wraps his arms around my waist and leans up to kiss me.

"ok, but uhh... Who were you talking to?"

Panic flashes across his face, but as fast as it came, it was gone. "oh just Liam updating us on the schedule for today. Nothing special."

He moves away from me and turns around busying himself with the dishes. The thing is Louis never does dishes. Something's up, but I can't squeeze it out of him directly. I have to be discrete and beat around the bush. I walk over and grab his waist, kissing his neck, right in the spot that drives him crazy. As a moan slips his lips I smirk triumphantly.

"baby not now. I gotta get these dishes done." I stop going rigid. Did he just... He just said no to sex, to clean?! Ok something is definitely up.

I step back from him running my hand through my wild curls. "ok well then, uhh.. I'll just go get dressed then" I look up hopefully but am met with his back and a shout over the shoulder. "ok babe. Have fun."

I turn around and walk back up the stairs. A million thoughts running through my mind. What is going on? Does he just not want it right now, or is he avoiding me? There is definitely something he's not telling me, but why?

I sigh as a shuffle back into my room, and over to my drawers. After much consideration I end up in some black skinnier and my ram ones t-shirt. Simple, but effective. I chuckle to myself as I relive that memory inside my head. I walk into the bathroom to brush my teeth. When I'm done I shake out my curls and sweep them to the side, like every other day.

I pull some socks out of my door and head back down stairs. As I get to the kitchen I see a note on the table:

Dear Hazza,

I went out for a little bit. Don't worry it's nothing important. There is some eggs and bacon in the fridge for breakfast if you want. Or you can go out and get something. Don't wait up I'll be awhile. Love you xx

Lou

I set the note down with a sigh. And now he's gone out, without me. Of course. I walk to the fridge and get out the eggs and bacon. I put a frying pan on medium heat and put bread in the toaster. As I could the eggs and bacon I think of all the things Louis could be doing right now.

Shopping

Out for coffee

Meeting a friend

Planning a romantic date

Planning a romantic get away for the two of us

Hanging with one of the boys

Christmas shopping

.............meeting a secret boyfriend......

The last one is the one that hurts to even think. But why would Louis cheat on me? I've given him everything and more. I've been nothing but faithful and loving and caring to him! It's impossible, he is not cheating on me.

To get it out of my head I turn on the radio, turning it all the way up.

Story of my life

Searching for the right

But it keeps avoiding me

Sorrow in my soul

Cause it seems that wrong

Really loves my company

He's more than a man

And this is more than love

Reason that the sky is blue

But clouds are rollin in

Because I'm gone again

And to him I just can't be true

And I know that

He knows I'm unfaithful

And it kills him inside

To know that I am happy with some other guy

I can see him dyin

I don't wanna do this anymore

I don't wanna be the reason why

Every time I walk out the door

I see him due a little more inside

And I don't wanna hurt him anymore

I don't wanna take away his life

I don't wanna be

A murder

I feel it in the air

As I'm doin my hair

Preparin for another date

A kiss upon my cheek

As he reluctantly

Asks if I'm gunna be out late

I say I won't be long

Just hangin with the girls

A lie I didn't have to tell

Because we both know

where I'm about to go

And we know it very well

And I know that

He knows I'm unfaithful

And it kills him inside

To know that I am happy with some other guy

I can see him dyin

I don't wanna do this anymore

I don't wanna be the reason why

Every time I walk out the door

I see him due a little more inside

And I don't wanna hurt him anymore

I don't wanna take away his life

I don't wanna be

A murder

Our love, his trust

I might as well take a gun and put it to his head

Get it over with

I don't wanna do this

Anymore

Uh

Anymore (anymore)

I don't wanna do this anymore

I don't wanna be the reason why

Every time I walk out the door

I see him due a little more inside

And I don't wanna hurt him anymore

I don't wanna take away his life

I don't wanna be

A murder (a murderer)

No no no no

Yeah yeah yeah

I turn off the radio, as I stare at the wall. I flick off the stove taking the pan off the heat and putting it down on another burner. As I slide to the ground, I burst into tears. Could it be true? Could he be cheating on me. I mean it sounds so simply and easy to do. What if he is.

As I sit there contemplating, I ignore my phone buzzing out of control on the counter.

I knew it was to good to be true!