Fragmental Fondness

Chapter Six

Therese

I cried...

I let my very last strength melt and accepted the fact that right now, in front of someone I barely get along with I surrendered and got so weak on my knees.

With the roaring sound of the rain together with the mad wild thunder and glimpse of the lightning as my witnessed and Ichigo as the judge. I care nothing. I embraced the judgment, wholeheartedly.

Isa lang ang nasa isip ko, ang gusto ko. Mailabas ang lahat ng ito. Mai-iyak ang lahat ng bagay na gumugulo at nagpapahirap sa kalooban ko. Pakiramdam ko kung hindi ito aapaw palabas sa puso ko ay hindi ako makakatulog nang maayos ngayong gabi.

"Anong gusto mong gawin ko?"

Ichigo was still at his place, not stirring any single move. Nakataas parin ang kamay niya. Hinihintay akong kunin iyon. Habang ang isang kamay naman niya ay mahigpit ang hawak sa payong na dala.

The rain was pouring us its limit. Napapatakan parin nang tubig ulan si Ichigo kahit pa malaki naman ang payong niya pero tila wala siyang pakielam roon. Ang buong atensyon niya ay nasa akin. Samantalang ako ay hindi siya magawang tignan o kahit sulyapan man lamang.

"What do you want me to do?" He asked again. Now even more serious than to that first time he questioned.

I gulped. Tumutulo parin ang mga sariwang luha sa magkabila kong mata.

"Gusto mo bang iwanan muna kita dito?"

No. I want someone to hold on. I want you to be right here beside me. I can't be alone. I might get myself drown. I can't swim away from this pain.

Kita ko sa gilid nang mata ko ang dahan dahan niyang pagbaba sa nakalahad niyang kamay. It landed on one of my shoulder and he started tapping me there softly. It surprised me...

"You want me to stay, do you?"

I hardly nodded my head once. Pero kaagad kong narinig ang pagsarado niya sa payong na dala.

"I'll be at the backseat. You cry freely...now,"

Kagaya nang sinabi niya ay sumakay siya sa likod ng sasakyan. Ramdam ko ang kamay niya sa side nang inuupuan ko.

Umiyak ako kagaya nang gusto ng utak ko. I sobbed. I let everything out even those little and huge frustration of mine with my own self. Those failures that I've gained even though I strived hard and gave only my best. Those hardships that I've encountered either alone or with my loved ones. I cried for those people who took me for granted even though I did everything just to make them stay and beg them not to cause pain with my fragile heart. Those who treated me bad and acted innocent after. Who made me feel worthless and so hard to love. I sobbed for those things that I've done wrong and couldn't undone. I sobbed for those memories that keep on rushing through my mind everytime I close my eyes. I let out the overflowing disappointment of mine for those selfish and selfless decisions that I've decided that made me live my life full of regret. I cried every single heartaches that I've gone through yet still I'm not get over them.

Iniyak ko na lahat hanggang sa wala na 'kong maramdamang kahit na ano. Hanggang sa magmanhid na lang ako.

"Water..."

Kinuha ko ang baso nang tubig sa kamay ni Ichigo. Hindi ako gaanong nabasa pero ako parin ang una niyang inabutan ng puting twalya. Nakapahinga na iyon ngayon sa ulo ko. Ichigo was soaking wet since the umbrella was all on me when we went out the car and walked towards their spanish inspired antique door. Inuna niya pa ang pagkuha sa'kin ng tubig bago siya magpalit ng tuyong damit.