The last thing I wanted to do was add yet another acronym to my already 5 mile long medical file, but guess which dumb bitch just got diagnosed with severe ADD??
This is how it went for me at the doctor's office.
Doctor: so, you only needed to score a 34 to be considered having ADD.
Me: yeah? Alright, how did I do?
Doctor: .........you got a 53.
Me: 0_______0 fuck.
Honestly I feel mad and frustrated at myself for not knowing that I had it sooner. It's the reason I struggle so much with writing and finding the motivation to write, and I had no idea. I'm honestly amazed that I've finished ANY books at all with how badly my brain is wired.
No wonder I've always struggled to write consistently and/or keep up with an update schedule...
I once suspected that I might have had ADD about 4 years ago, and I looked to my dad and asked "do you think I have ADD?" He looked back at me and shrugged, "Nah."
AND I BLINDLY BELIEVED HIM!! XD
Gosh, I was a dumb kid. I don't know why I believed that and didn't pursue it sooner. My dad has zero knowledge of ADD or any mental health condition for that matter XD
ADD has caused me to suffer extremely for my entire life and I'm honestly just kicking myself for not realizing that I had it sooner.
I'm in the process of getting treatment sorted out, so I'm not on any medication yet, so I'm still riding the struggle bus and figuring out how to mentally process this news in the meantime.
Sorry about the rant. I'm honestly just not sure how to feel right now.
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