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WHAT IS LOVE?

A Supernatural Omegaverse Angst ft Season 14 finale.

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What is Love?
Baby, don't hurt me,
baby don't hurt me...
No more.

What is Love?

The first instinct that runs through Castiel's mind, is to protect Jack. And though before, he had told himself that it was all for the sake of the future-the paradise that was promised and the oath he made to the boy's mother. But that was before he found himself in the Nephelim and grew connected to him more than he ever was to Claire and even with the Winchesters. Jack Kline had become his within the short amount of time they were given. He'd become his child and Castiel had learnt the true meaning of parenthood.

  Even if it meant he would turn his back on the Winchesters, on Dean, he'd do anything for that child. He'd loved Jack since the moment he'd seen him after returning from the dead. Not because he knew the future that was promised but because of some unknown but familiar feeling. A maternal instinct he'd thought he'd never get to discover. As an Angel and Warrior of God, he was always programmed to follow orders without question and that also meant he'd done many horrid things during the millennia of his existence. Many of which he had no recollection of due to Naomi's tampering in his mind.

Nonetheless, as a Seraph, one of his duties before being a Soldier, was to bare and raise fledgelings. Under Naomi, he was forced to remember and delete memories he didn't even know he had. Some of him raising young Angels, teaching them flight and giving him the care he had only begun to with Jack. It was part of the reason it hurt him so much to kill his kind. For he had no idea how many of them he had given care to. Like when he had murdered Samandriel under Naomi's influence. He saw those memories flash before him as he looked into those scared blue eyes. Samandriel had been one of those fledgelings he'd raised and loved before he was wiped clean and trained to kill. 

  But Jack wasn't Samandriel, Jack was his fledgeling. He had claimed and would provide for and protect with his life. This was why he'd tried to protect Jack, even as Dean had come to do God's will. But the Nephelim wanted this faith. Preferred this destiny than to hurt others. A kind and brave child, no matter the blood of his birth father, he was a Winchester, through and through. Castiel recovered from being thrown and heard as Sam came running, shouting for his brother. Chuck, as he preferred, appears and the gun cocks.

Dean couldn't do it. Thank the Heavens. He couldn't hurt Jack. Castiel is beyond relieved but there isn't any time for that. Sam and Dean are coming to the realization that this was all just a part of Chuck's story. The Seraphin isn't sure how to feel about that. All his life, he'd followed the orders of this God, this being without question. Because he was their Creator, their Father. He couldn't fight the questions that filtered in. He wanted answers. Answers for all the suffering. Dean disobeys God when his Mother is offered in return for Jack's life. Sam looks pleased and Castiel wants to hug him. But he couldn't. No, right now.

  Tension rises. Dean tells Chuck to go to Hell and with a snap of his finger, Jack is back on his knees, crying out in agony. Castiel tries to heal him, calls for him and tries to save him. But it's not nearly enough. Jack needs his help and yet again, the Omega Angel can't do anything. Fear grips him as his Alpha son screams. Sam and Dean try to fight him. Castiel doesn't know how they do it. Go up against anything for family, even God. Dean is thrown away but Castiel can't focus on him, Jack's life slips away and pain like no other grips him. Jack lays there, eyes burnt out and nothing left within him. Not a sliver of soul and not even a drop of angelic grace.