What is a Toaster? | Sabriel

It's Awkward, but We'll Work it Out

Gabriel's POV

 

The wedding had been a success, and Gabriel had to admit that it felt so good when Dean smiled at Sam and Castiel like they were his life lines. Sam, although a bit hesitant, finally warmed back up to his brother, even going as far as gluing Dean's hand to his wine glass with the glue he had found in Gabriel's glovebox. He and Gabriel had laughed so hard at Dean's expression, they had to leave the room.

 

So currently, they were on the small steps of the building, the midday sun finally starting to make its descent downwards. Silence had fallen over the both of them, and Gabriel was chewing on his lip. Although he had been good at putting up a facade around the others, his true worries always fell around Sam.

 

"Are you okay, Gabe?" Sam asked, making Gabriel's chest twinge a bit. His voice sounded so different, sounded so much sadder, even when he was laughing, but when he asked that question, the nurse could still hear that kindness that he was already missing so much.

 

"I'm just thinking how different it will be when we get home. You have your memories back, and it's like I don't know anything about you anymore." Gabriel finally admitted. He was allowing Sam in, and he hoped that the boy would stay, no matter how much it changed. He heard Sam sigh beside him and felt an arm wrap around his shoulders, pulling him against the warmth of the giant.

 

"I know. I sort of wish that I never would have got my memories back. I don't want you to know what a monster I was, what I am." Sam said, and Gabriel felt his heart drop. There was actual pain in his voice, as if his memories alone would destroy the friendship that had quickly grown. Gabriel swallowed thickly, his fingers fiddling in his lap.

 

"We'll work it out. It'll be awkward, our friendship will be strained, but we'll get through it. We can learn about each other, be a shoulder to lean on, start from scratch. Sound good?" Gabriel said, smiling at the man that sat beside him. He was willing to fight for the only friend he had. He was just hoping that Sam would do the same.

 

For a moment, Sam just sat there, thinking. Gabriel watched as his jaw clenched and unclenched before he finally dropped his head and sighed. He looked over at Gabriel and nodded, a little shy. The nurse grinned, leaning over and hugging the giant tightly.

 

"Let's get back inside then, okay?" Gabriel offered, feeling the arm around his shoulder slide off as Sam nodded again. Gabriel stood and held his hand out, hauling the man up when he took it. He grinned at Sam, though he felt a bit intimidated as the male towered over him. It so wasn't fair.

 

Gabriel scaled up the few steps that the building had, walking over to the door and opening it. The murmur of people speaking became apparent, but neither Sam nor the nurse cared, because they entered the room without a second thought.

 

The chairs that had been there had been cleared from the middle of the floor, allowing the people to dance. Dean and Castiel were the center of attention, Castiel laughing happily as he was spun around, caught in a surprise kiss. Gabriel felt his heart burn, wishing to one day have as good of a relationship as his baby brother.

 

"I don't think I've ever seen Dean this happy before. Castiel sure is good for him." Sam commented casually, though a hint of bitterness in his voice. Gabriel could understand his pain. It was good to see Castiel happy, but he couldn't help feel disappointed that it wasn't the nurse putting him in this good a mood.