Harry Styles Imagines

» golden

WARNING: this imagine mentions physical and emotional abuse. viewer discretion is advised.

imagine written by me

word count; 725
point of view; third person

Y/N has never been comfortable in relationships. Harry knows this. To even become close friends with her it took them a few years to establish a trust. Recently becoming romantically involved, the trust has been harder to gain.

They've been close friends for about six years and have been in a relationship for one year. Harry knows about Y/N's past. It took time for her to tell him but now she is fully open with him about it.

When Y/N was younger she suffered from an abusive relationship with her father. Physically and emotionally, every day of her life until she turned eighteen, she was abused. It didn't make it any better that in the last relationship Y/N was in she was physically and emotionally abused for a year as well, which is why Y/N is so cautious of Harry.

Every time Harry goes to touch Y/N she flinches. Whenever he speaks she cowers at the sound of his voice. They even weren't able to be physically intimate until about nine months into the relationship.

Harry didn't mind though. He was in love with Y/N. He would do anything for her, give her his heart and soul. The last thing Harry wanted was for the girl he was so madly in love with to be afraid of him.

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It was a late Sunday night and Harry and Y/N were lying on the couch watching movies. Harry was laying with his back on the couch and Y/N was on top of him with her head and her hand resting on his chest.

Harry reaches down to stroke Y/N's hair and she flinched at his touch. Harry understood why this was, but he had had enough.

"Y/N, I love you."

Y/N looked up at Harry, "I love you too," she smiled.

"I love you. You know I love you, right? You know that I am so madly in love with you. You know this, right?"

Y/N put her hands on Harry's chest and pushed herself up to look at him straight in the eyes, "Harry, what is this about?"

Harry sighed and broke eye contact with Y/N, "I have to tell you something."

Y/N sat up straight on the couch and so did Harry. He rested his elbows on his knees and held his hands together.

"You can tell me anything babe."

Harry turned his head for a quick second to look at Y/N then turned back to his hands, rubbing his fingers together.

"My last relationship, I told you about her, remember?"

Y/N looked at Harry with confusion, "Yes, you told me."

"Well, I didn't tell you everything exactly," Harry sighed and ran his hand through his hair, "Y/N she abused me."

Y/N's mouth fell open as she tried to process what Harry has said. Once she understood she set her hand on his back and lightly rubbed.

"Harry, why didn't you tell me before?"

Harry looked up at Y/N, "I just didn't feel like it was important. I knew what you had gone through and I didn't want to pile mine on top of it."

Harry places one of his hands on Y/N's knee and then the other on the side of her face.

"Y/N, I love you so goddamn much. I would never want to hurt you, ever. I swear on every thing that's holy and unholy I would never lay a finger on you in a harmful way, okay? I don't want you to be scared of me. I don't know fully what you went through and I will never be able to fully grasp it but I want you to know that I'm trying to understand and I'm trying so hard every day to prove to you that I want to be with you for the rest of my life, and never would I ever take you for granted."

Tears spilled over Y/N's eyes and she pulled Harry in for a kiss. Once they parted Y/N smiled at Harry, "I love you," she said, and for the first time, she knew she truly meant it.

"I love you too, so much."

After that day, Y/N never flinched at Harry's touch, but rather craved for the next time that she would be wrapped up in his arms.

short update but i've decided to write some short pieces on the songs from fine line. as you might of guessed, this is how i interpreted 'golden'. this isn't what the song is actually about i'm assuming, but this is my take on it. tpwk <3