Loving Ms. Mills

Time Untold

Regina p.o.v*: 

wow, it's actually Emma. the woman who I thought had left me and forgotten about me. not seeing her has driven me insane and now henry is all grown up and Emma seems pretty put together too. I'm thinking about calling her to maybe hang out later but i don't know how well that's going to be for my mental health since she might be going back to New York anyways. maybe they're just visiting. 

I face it all and pick up the phone to call her *ring.. ring* 

"Hello.."

"Hey, Emma it uh me gina... I was surprised to see you at Ruby's earlier." 

"oh yeah, I was surprised I even decided to travel all this way. It was Henry's idea. I think maybe he missed Ruby and the environment you know..." 

"yeah.. wow so you're all grown up and so is he that's great." 

"yeah ha where does the time go.. hey maybe we could go out and get coffee later today what do u say about 9?"

"yea that would be great.. I'll meet u at Ruby's later!"

I hang the phone up and frantically pace the room. "what was I thinking, she doesn't love me anymore, maybe she never ever loved me, oh god I can't do this, can I? I need to shower and shave I don't know when the last time I thoroughly washed my hair was!" okay it's okay I pulled myself together and got in the shower shampooing my brunette hair with my apple shampoo and finishing it off with cinnamon conditioner, the cinnamon reminds me of Emma. I then bathe my body and shave my legs and other places. 

after my shower, I style my hair. I threw on my best blue dress which was slightly big due to my loss of appetite from my depressive episode. Who am I kidding I'm still in a depressive episode. you don't just leave the person you love behind and start a new life. I guess it was for the best. I look over and see a gold chain that I've been dying to wear but never had the opportunity to. I throw that on to complete the look. 

I wait for the time to come and grab my keys and head out. 

I arrive at Ruby's and see the yellow bug in the parking lot. "Swan" my heart starts racing and I get kind of dizzy as well. I open the door and walk through to see the cute blonde waiting for me. 

"Hey Emma" 

"Regina! I missed you!" 

"oh... that's something. so how's New York been you know anything or anyone new?" 

"uh.. well I'm older and I also am; I don't know, talking or seeing this girl named Mal, i don't think it's anything serious though. 

"hmm I didn't know miss swan did "Nothing serious" that's surprising honestly" 

"Really why?" 

"I don't know you just don't give me good time girl vibes. Also your heart kind of lives in your vagina." 

"oh well you know things changed since I moved. a lot of things changed Mills. My heart never lived in my vagina... It just happened to beat there more while I was here," 

"yes, I understand that Emma but was I just the good-time girls good time? was everything we had based on a fantasy of mines am I delusional? tell me I'm not crazy and loving you wasn't a mistake because as u can see it obviously broke me into three hundred parts." 

"Woah gina calm down... you were not my good time I loved you... I really did! I don't know what's happened to you since I was gone but you look beat up, you're skinny and anxious you don't look too good have you been taking care of yourself?" 

"Are you trying to play psychiatrist now because I know I'm fucked up Emma I came to have coffee not a life lecture I know how bad I'm fucking doing, and I guess this is how heartbreak feels?" 

I roll my eyes and get up to leave. I grab my purse and walk out the door. 

"gina wait..." 

emma waits for me to turn around 

"what is it swan? you wanna talk about Mal and how happy your life is and braid each other's hair? can't you see I'm broken?"

"yeah, but you don't have to be... come to New York with me. I was heartbroken too you know. I cried myself to sleep for months before I even thought about putting myself out there. I was broken too but I rebounded because I knew we were going to get back in some way... so move back to New York with me, hell marry me even. please." 

"Swan I- I got to go."