Loving Ms. Mills

Slow Starts

Regina p.o.v*: 

wow okay, Emma just proposed to me and asked me to move in all in one day and one sitting. I don't know how I feel about that yet but it's not like I don't want to live out a future with her. It's just the way she went about the situation after years of not a single phone call or email was so not okay. I walk upstairs and get undressed to go to bed but something in me just can't sleep. I try to but all I could think about was Emma and Henry.

I start thinking. maybe we could take things one step at a time. I'll move to New York to be with her but I won't live with her and I definitely won't get married to her. she seemed very out of it and it seems like she didn't want to marry me it was just out of reaction and she already has another partner waiting for her to go home. things are far way too complicated right now. 

I pick up my phone and call Emma. 

"Hello?" 

"hey, Emma it's Regina.." 

"I know... so do you have an answer to my- my question" 

she has a little giggle afterward. 

"Emma, are you drunk?" 

" whatttttt nooo I am a top-notch- I don't even know haha! I'm grown." 

"Emma I'm coming to pick you up you're clearly not thinking straight, did you plan to drive home like that?" 

"Like what ginaaaaa... madly in love with you."

"okay, I'm on my way." 

well, that didn't go as planned. I grab my shoes and coat and left in my silk pink pajamas and Gucci crocs. I walk into the bar and the stench of alcohol almost makes me gag. 

"Emma come on." 

"GINA!! hey, guys look! my future wife is here... she's gonna be one lucky lady!" 

"Emma stop, wheres henry?" 

"oh um, I think I remember he went to a friend's house to spend the night."  

"YOU THINK?" 

"Okay, I know he did." 

"Okay, Emma let's get you home." 

"you mean to the hotel." 

"oh... no you can stay at my place until you're sobered up enough to finish the rest of your stay and go back to new york." 

"With you I assume."

"well talk more when you're better." 

she folds her arms and looks out the window. her face is pale and she appears to have this empty sort of look as if someone died or someone broke her heart. she looked like she didn't have any purpose at that moment and it almost made me a little bit sad to see her like this. 

"Emma, are you okay?" 

"no... I'm sorry I'm just embarrassed." 

"you don't have to apologize for the way you feel. my house is only a couple more minutes away w'ell get you changed and ready for tomorrow in no time." 

"have I ever told you how much I genuinely appreciate you? like I'm so thankful for everything you've done in the past years and I don't think I ever actually said thank you. like ever." 

"It's fine Emma look we're at my house. let's go." 

I grab Emma and walk her up the stairs. she struggles and giggles a little bit.

we get up the stairs and into the bedroom where she goes and sits on the edge of my bed. 

"here are some clothes you could wear for tonight..." 

I turn to grab them and Emma is unbuttoning her shirt. I turn back around really fast trying to pretend like I didn't see it and my heart starts to pace. 

I suddenly feel warm fingertips and gentle lips touching the back of my neck and something in me wants to keep going and something in me knows to stop it. 

I turn around to tell her to stop but she pulls in my waist and starts kissing me passionately. it felt so right this time. like there was nothing that could get us in trouble or caught. it felt good but the alcoholic breath came in and I knew this was just Emma highly intoxicated. 

"Emma stop."

"Regina..."

"no, I'm serious stop. you cannot just rush into my life drunk and trying to have sex with me. I'm mentally broken right now I need time. I'm willing to move to New York to re-bond but do not expect me to just jump on board with everything you're doing." 

"wow, I'm sorry. I'll get dressed. I'm feeling  a little tired anyways." 

"Okay." 

I walk downstairs and make myself a cup of coffee and some ice cream. I stay up for a while standing in the kitchen thinking about this new life I've agreed to the whole thing made my body shutter. I felt sick to my stomach but I knew she was the person I wanted to spend the rest of my life with so I sucked it up and walked back upstairs. 

Emma was sleeping so I crawled into bed next to her and laid my head down next to hers. 

I hear her roll over and I pretend to be asleep and the blonde ever so gently whispers into my ear. "I love you." and kisses my cheek. I smile and go to sleep thinking about everything that just happened.