Leaves on Fall

Prologue

DISCLAIMER: This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, businesses, places, events, locales, and incidents are either the products of the author's imagination or used in a fictitious manner. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or actual events is purely coincidental.
++credits to the rightful owner of the photo(cover) from pinterest, mwaps!

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Only if I'd written those words in a darker shade, in a bigger font, and in the boldest way it can be... or I could've just told those words the loudest way I can, but then again I didn't. Maybe it's destined... it should, no, it must happen. The graceful walk, simple but elegant white dress, small venue, genuine smiles, applause and 'I love you's'... That's what I've always dreamed of... just like what God made it happen and I could've wish nothing more than that, so why am I feeling this. It is the kind of feeling that I am certain but I could never admit to myself...

Regrets.

Nakakahiya, I even promised Him that I would accept every cons, I would change my attitude, and just be grateful and appreciative for everything in exchange of second chance... life, but what I'm doing right now isn't living. Living is not regretting for the mistakes I've done, but instead living is making up for those mistakes to become a greater person we've never been.

Kaya kung itutuloy ang pag-aaksaya ng oras sa lahat ng regrets... hindi ko ito deserve. I don't deserve the chance that God gave me.

From this day onwards, I will cherish every moment of my life, even every second of it. Spend times with my loved ones and make them realize that I love them, that I won't leave them, that I'll be strong enough for them, for them not to think that I will not make it, for them not to think that I'll just left them... hanging, clueless... because now I know how painful it is to be left. Even much painful when you thought you'd be the happiest person alive, when you're so high on hoping that it will happen because you promised it to yourself, someone made a promise to me. But if this is my second chance, if this is what He thinks that'll make me happy... kahit hindi na ang happiest person, I am now contented and so grateful. Every mistake is really life-changing, either it'll lead to a worst page of our lives or the best. All I can say is I experienced both, I must admit that I felt paint and was hurt because of the thing I consider as my biggest mistake, I also felt the relief, and the happiness I am still enjoying. Just gotta live life to the fullest!

This view is really comforting and relaxing. Buti't hindi maalinsangan ngayon at malakas ang hangin dito sa terrace. Bumalik ako sa kwarto ko at dumapa sa kama ko to type the realizations to my laptop. I always do this to remind myself that I am now living... unlike before, full of doubts and regrets.

"Adi?" mommy knocked on my door, kaya umayos na din ako at tumayo na to keep my laptop.

"Mommy tuloy po ba?" I asked her and giggled showing her how excited I am. Ang tagal ko din naka tengga dito sa staycation house namin!

"Of course baby! You look so great, so since... padating palang naman ang mag-g-guide sa'tin, prepare some toiletries, extra clothes and your meds ha." she said in a concerned tone, I just nod and gave her a small smile before she left me para bumaba na at magprepare na din.

All the things I need was already in-placed in a white duffel bag na dinadala ko pag nag-gy-gym ako. Before I left my room, I checked my outfit one last time. It's just... I feel so happy and excited dahil first time kong mag hike! It's already one in the afternoon at aabot ng sunset para makaakyat kami, hindi man sa tuktok, pero enough na to see the beautiful sunset.

"Kim? You're tito's are already downstairs... okay ka lang ba diyan sa loob?" Daddy asked losing his patience kaya binuksan ko na din kaagad ang pinto.

"Oh baby, what's wrong? May masakit ba sa'yo?" Daddy asked when he saw me crying. Hindi naman ugly crying! Saks lang.

I higged him, tight... so tight kaya niyakap din ako ng isang kamay niya and the other hand is caressing my shoulder-length hair. "No... nothing's hurting dad. I'm just so happy... I feel so contented now, and I want to take this opportunity to thank you and mom and Ate hazel!" I said and wiped my tears when I escaped from his hug. Bumaba na din kami to welcome my uncles here sa Baguio.

"Wow Adi! You look so healthy na ah!" my youngest tito when he approached me.

"Hahaha, thank you tito, pero healthy lang ba? Tito I look prettier kaya." I said playfully and rolled my eyes, obviously joking.

"Yes dad, she's pretty but also mature na din yung aura niya, she looks blooming kaya." Ate Jamie complimented.

When our funny chatting ended, our parents decided to go na, dahil baka hindi pa namin abutan ang sunset. During the byahe, kahit woods na lang halos ang nakikita ko, hindi pa din ako na bore. I enjoyed the long ride as the wind blew my short wavy hair. I think, they're right, ate jamie's right. I've matured. It's just, everything feels so right. I may not got some of my dreams when I was younger, I must admit that I had achieved greater, better and much worth living than those of today.

This is living.

:)