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FIRST LOVE

YOUR NAME'S POV
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i think most people have had that relationship with someone when you both kind of flirt with eachother all the time and all your friends ship you, but you still tell everyone that you're just friends.

that's the type of relationship me and jj have.

we flirt all the time, we compliment eachother's appearance and all our friends swear that we're going to end up togheter one day.

at first i belived them, i thought me and jj were going to end up togheter. now however, i'm not so sure anymore. it felt so real at first, i was crushing on jj and he was crushing on me.
and i still am, and i think he still is. 

so what's the problem you may ask?

you see, i've never had a relationship before, and i guess it's scary. when all my friends talk about their boyfriends it makes me so excited, i want to date someone, i really want to.
but when i get to that point with someone, i get nervous. i don't know how to do anything. i haven't even had my first kiss yet and i'm seventeen years old. it's stupid- but it's the truth.

i want to fall in love with jj. i want him to like me back, and i want us to end up togheter. but i also want to spend the rest of my life alone with thousands of cats.

i know jj, but i don't know the boyfriend side of him. what if he expects me to experienced? what if he wants me to know how to makeout? i don't know anything, but jj on the other hand, he's a hot seventeen year old surfer boy, everyone loves him. i'm not sure but if you asked me, i would say that he has hooked up with atleast fifty different girls.

what if he's just using me for my body? there isn't anything special about my body, i have no curves and i'm pretty flat, but what do i know? maybe he just wants me as his pet.

i can't tell anyone about this, they'll laugh at me. why would he use me for my body when there's nothing special about it? that doesn't make sense.

i guess i just have to face my biggest fear, falling in love. i mean, i can't live alone my entire life and if jj really likes me, shouldn't i give him a chance?

my phone vibrated in my pocket as i got a new notification. i picked it up and looked at the bright screen.

"1 new message from jj <3 "

my heart skipped a beat as soon as i saw his name on the screen. i quickly unlocked my phone, reading the newest message in my inbox.

"are you coming tonight? <3"

i smiled at the little heart in the end, before quickly typing out my answer.

"yes, are you? <3"

john b had told the whole pogue crew + sarah, to meet up at his house tonight. we had no idea why, and he wouldn't tell us why, but i had nothing better to do so i decided to go.

"yeah. any idea on what's going on?"

i mentally shrugged my shoulders as i read jj's message. atleast it felt good to know that i wasn't the only one john b refused to explain what was going on to.

"nope. probably something stupid,"

later that night i found myself sitting infront of my mirror in my room, with all different kinds of makeup spread out over my desk.

i smiled at the reflection in the mirror, feeling proud of myself as i had just mastered my winged eyeliner at the first try. the reason to why i was wearing makeup in the first place was because i knew that jj was going to be there, and i wanted to look good for him, i needed to.

i stood up from my chair and grabbed my phone, before leaving my room and heading out of the house.

i lived pretty close to john b's house but i still decided to grab my bike. ever since i was a little kid i had always loved bikes. we have a love & hate realtionship as i many times have fallen off my bike and hurt myself pretty badly.

when i arrived at the house, there was nobody else there. it was weird, i was never first, me and jj always arrived last. i walked up to the front door and knocked a couple of times, but i didn't get any type of response back.

"hey!" someone suddenly said behind me. i felt the butterflies in my stomach as i realised who's voice it was. i turned around with a big smile, facing jj.

"hi," i said nervously.

"you look pretty," he said, causing my cheeks to swift to a light pink colour.

"you look beautiful," i said, returning the love. this is what i meant with flirting, we would always say stuff like this, but it was always like we never really meant it.

"where are the others?" he asked, looking around in confusion. i shrugged my shoulders and sighed lightly.

"not here," i answered. jj let out a small sigh before chuckling lightly.

"what is it?" i asked, not understanding what he was laughing about.

"they're setting us up," he said, causing me to let out a small oh.

i smiled nervously, not really knowing what to do. did jj feel uncomfortable now? maybe he didn't have any feelings for me at all, and maybe this made him feel weird. why would they set us two up?

"so what do we do?" i asked.

"i have an idea," jj said. he stepped closer to me, so close that i could count all of his invisble freckles if he asked me to.

"mega mind," i joked, not knowing what to do. he didn't say anything, we just stood there and looked at eachother for what felt like hours, but i'm pretty sure it was just four secounds.

"can i kiss you?" jj suddenly asked, throwing me off guard. i felt my legs starting to shake as i nodded slowly.

jj placed his hand on my cheek and leaned in, placing his lips on mine. at first i didn't know what to do, but i just melted into his touch.

when we pulled away from the kiss we were both wearing a huge smile. i think we both knew that we were more than just friends, and that it had always been that way.

"i like you," he said, causing me to let out a relieved giggle.

maybe love isn't so scary afterall.