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WHAT A FEELING

YOUR NAME'S POV
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everyone knows that feeling when you find your new favorite song and then you go around and listen to it, every secound possible. that feeling, that's exactly what being in love feels like.

finding your person is just like finding your song. everything feels magical, everything feels perfect.

when i first met jj i was super afraid — not only because he was my first boyfriend ever but also because i felt like he was way out of my league, and so i felt like i had to be perfect all the time. i mean, jj maybank is jj maybank. everyone wants him, so if i messed up he could just break up with me and find someone else. someone better.

these feelings were haunting me for what felt like ages. i didn't want to talk to him about it, maybe that would just make it seem like i didn't trust him? i did, i genuinly did. i guess i was just overall afraid, because i couldn't lose him.

however, i pretty early realised that jj wasn't planning on leaving me at all. he was just as into me as i was into him. and i can't tell you why, because if i was a boy — i would've never wanted to date someone like me. but i guess jj has a thing for confused and insecure girls?

anyways this doesn't really have anything to do with this story. i'm trying to explain the feeling of love.

being in love feels like staying out late, swimming at one am and blasting music while riding your bike with friends. being in love feels like buying a new shirt and then wearing it for a week straight just because you love it so much. being in love feels like running in a sunflower field, with not a care in the world. being in love feels like putting on your playlist and skipping every sad song because nothing in the world could ever bring you down.

"baby what are you doing?" i jumped from the sudden sound of someone's voice. i quickly closed my notebook and turned around to see jj. he was standing in my doorway with a big smile on his face and a ton of books under his arm.

"studying," i answered. i had promised to help him study today, even though we both knew it would end up with us just cuddling and watching movies.

"without me?" jj asked, he pretented to look hurt while dumping his books on my bed.

"possibly," i giggled at his childish behavior. i stood up from my chair and walked up to him with a big smile plastered on my lips.

"you're so cute i'm gonna have to forgive you," he said before pulling me into a hug. i smiled into his shoulder as i enjoyed the smell of his cologne.

"what do you need help with?" i asked, reffering to the amount of books he had brought. jj pulled away from and laughed nervously.

"everything,"

"well, not really. everything except poetry class," poetry class. explain the feeling of love.

"i just explained the feelings i feel whenever i'm around you," he added. i felt my cheeks turn into a slight red colour before i leaned in and kissed him.

this — this is exactly what love felt like.
blushing + butterflies.