Lloyd Garmadon x Male Reader |Just My Type|

Chapter 18: Can't Be Good...

When we both got back to Lloyd's apartment, we quickly take a seat on the sofa together. Walking from here to my house, then back here was tiring without a break in the middle. And as soon as Lloyd sits down on the couch, I decide to curl up next to him. He takes his hand in mine and I just nuzzle up with him, my face in the crook of his neck just feeling his warmth.

I then hear Lloyd let out a long sigh, "You know..." he begins, "if you're gonna stay here for a while, my mom should know... ab-about us," he stutters.

"You wanna tell her? So soon?" I ask with a bit of worry. Something about getting our relationship out there is pretty frightening to me. It just reminds me of all of the harassment I would get at my old school for... being out.

"Well, yeah. We can't keep this a secret forever, (Y/N)," he laughs nervously.

At this point I had already removed my face from beside Lloyd's neck so I could face him, but my hand was still taken by Lloyd's. I feel him stroke my hand with his thumb. It reminds me of the first time we had held hands, far before we were even dating.

"I guess I'm scared..." I admit.

"It seems like every part of this relationship is scary to you..." he lets out. I look at him with confusion and withdraw my hand from his.

"Sorry... I- I really didn't mean it like that... It's just that... you're even afraid to tell me you love me and stuff... I dunno. It's like you want us to get married before I even tell my own mom, you know? It's not like it's a life long decision. We're just dating! And besides, I've wanted to come out to my mom for a long time now... And I know you're not keeping me from doing it, I just feel that if I tell her I'm just gay, she'll figure us out pretty quick. And I don't want this to be something she has to solve- I want her to know from me..." he rants.

"I see..." I look away, "well... we can tell her whenever you want, I guess... I guess it's just my mom and everyone at school who I don't quite want to know about us yet. They're the people who I'm afraid will be... critical of us..." I sigh.

"I understand... so... do you think I could tell my mom soon? It doesn't have to be today or anything, I just..." he starts.

"You can tell her when she gets back... tell her about us," I smile weakly at him.

"Thanks, (Y/N)... you're the best," he smiles softly then places a small kiss on my cheek. My heart melts. I love this kind of affection from him. I normally consider myself a hard and masculine person, but Lloyd just makes me all giddy and he gets me acting like a twelve year old fan girl. My heart just flutters every time I see him.

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After a while, Lloyd decides to turn on the TV and we watch whatever was on the movie channels, since Lloyd is a big movie nerd. He knew practically every movie that came on. He's a fan of pretty much everything, from super hero movies, to movies all the way out in space. And I think it's so cute to watch him get all excited about it. I guess I've developed a thing for nerds, you could say.

I'm not paying much attention to the movies, though. Lloyd and I are just laying on the couch together. He's on his back and I'm just laying on top of him with me face only inches from his. We're roughly around the same height, maybe I was a little bit taller if you were to measure exactly, but it was nice being the same height. Either of us could cuddle the other without it feeling awkward because of size difference.

I just lay silently on top of Lloyd with my head on his chest, listening to his slow and steady heart beat. Something funny that I've noticed is that his heart goes a little faster around the climax of each movie. He's completely enthralled with each story, almost as if he's actually there, but I'm not really into movies that much. I prefer games over films, but I'm glad Lloyd is enjoying it.