𝘪𝘵𝘴 𝘢𝘭𝘸𝘢𝘺𝘴 𝘣𝘦𝘦𝘯 𝘶, 𝘊𝘰𝘭𝘦𝘮𝘪𝘭𝘢

𝑰𝑰𝑰.

𝒄𝒂𝒎𝒊'𝒔 𝒑𝒐𝒊𝒏𝒕 𝒐𝒇 𝒗𝒊𝒆𝒘 !

I hear my phone ring. It's Lili, I put my phone on speakers as I continue washing the dishes.

"Hey Lils, what's up?" I ask.

"Cams? I really need to talk to you, Something bad happened and i- umm..it's about Cole.", she nervously says.

I shush her instantly and turn off speaker mode, for some reason I didn't want Charles hearing her from the other room.

"Shit, okay Lili, what happened?" I say quietly.

"He knows about the wedding, I forgot the invitation card at Cole's place and he found it. And now he feels so bad because he actually wants to be there.", Lili explains.

"Oh my god! This is a mess! What should I do?! I mean i- should I invite him, or-.", I say.

"I guess, yeah Cami, obviously you should" Lili tells me.

"Alright, but I'm doing it tomorrow I'm too nervous to do so now. He probably hates me" I say sadly.

"He could never, we both know that anyways, once you talk to him you'll have to tell me everything okay? Bye Cami", she says then hangs up.

What have I done? I should've invited him from the first place. Now I just feel guilty. Guilty that I hadn't invited him before, and guilty that I didn't want Charles finding out about all of this. And I honestly don't know why. Cole and I are just friends, and I love him as a brother, just as a brother.

⎯⎯⎯⎯ 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒏𝒆𝒙𝒕 𝒅𝒂𝒚

I waited for Charles to leave so that I could call Cole and invite him to the wedding. I know that Charles would eventually find out, but I didn't want to be the one telling him. Well at least not now, I'm not ready. He would just see him at the wedding, and there won't be anything he could do, right?

I take my phone and search for his name in my contacts. 'Coley Woley' It's been a while since I last talked to him.

I hesitate as I press call, then I hold my phone to my ear.

Two beeps and he hasn't answered, Maybe I should just hang up It's okay Cami, you can do this. But I couldn't.

Once I move the phone away from my ear, I hear the doorbell ring. I open the door to reveal the person who I was so afraid to face. The person whose face and smile made me forget about the whole world for a second.

I stand there frozen, and in total surprise. My mouth could've been open for 5 whole minutes, I honestly can't remember.

His voice breaks the silence," You called?" he says, with his phone is his hand, "So are you going to let me in?"

I move, letting him in, but still speechless.

"Cole?" I whisper. He couldn't hear me.

"How have you been? Good? It's been a while," he chuckles and hugs me

"Listen I really need to talk to you and Charles, Where is he? I thought he'd be here." He says looking around.

I clear my voice,"Charles isn't here. But have a seat, make yourself comfortable." I tell him.

We sat there silently for a couple of seconds, then I came back to reality and realized everything that had just happened.

I gather all my courage and finally say, "Cole, I know you know about the wedding," and before I knew it, my eyes started filling up with tears as I continued.

"I'm sorry, I should've invited you sooner, but trust me I feel so bad. You're like a brother to me, and you should've been the first on the list and-" I say all in one breath.

"It's okay," he cuts me off," I understand."

He wipes my tears that are now falling on my cheeks, and it's just silence all over again.

"Cole you're more than welcome to come, okay?" I say, looking into his eyes.

"Wait, does Charles know you're inviting me?" He then says.

I look at him, and say nothing.

"I see," he says,

our faces just inches away, and then he continues,

"I really hate myself.", He says.

"For what?" I ask, confused.

"For doing this,"he whispers as he pushes his soft lips against mine.

I forgot how perfectly our lips connected when we kissed, they fit together like puzzle pieces.

Kissing him made me feel safe and secure. I felt this fire light inside of me, a feeling that I hadn't felt in years. No one could ever trigger that fire other than him, not even Charles.

Wait! Charles! Oh my God, I'm getting married. I couldn't do this.

I pull back, then I hear him say, "I'm sorry. I don't know where that came from. I just couldn't help it. I really thought I had moved on, but apparently not."

"Cole," I say calmly, "this is so not okay. Oh god, what would Charles say?!"

"Cami this is all my fault I shouldn't have come here, or I should've at least left when you told me Charles wasn't here".

I suddenly feel all this anger inside of me,

"You know what?" I say as my voice starts getting louder, and my tears running down faster by the second,

"You're right! This whole thing is your fault. Did you really expect to come here and just kiss me, and everything would be okay?! Cole I'm getting MARRIED for God's sake! I'm not letting you, your kiss, or whatever it is I'm supposed to feel after kissing you, ruin this for me! I think it's time for you to leave." I yell

"Cami i-" He tried to say but I cut him off.

"Just leave." I calmly said.

I watch him get out and close the door behind him, then I just sit there on the floor, sobbing. It scares me that kissing him felt amazing. I wanted him. But I knew I couldn't do anything about it. I'm not canceling everything just for him. I wouldn't do that to Charles. I just couldn't

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