𝐁𝐥𝐮𝐞 𝐂𝐨𝐮𝐜𝐡 • 𝐳.𝐡 |✔️

the show must go on

Zach P.O.V. 

"what did Taylor say about moving?" Daniel asked handing me a towel.

"pretty sure it's a no" i threw my towel down leaning against the wall.

Daniel nodded tearing up. "same with Amanda"

"why can't she move? LA has great opportunity for her in acting"

"have you told her?" he says sitting beside me.

"kinda.. i don't want to loss her. maybe she's just a New York girl and i'm a LA guy. i even told her to bring her blue couch"

"i don't think her couch will help you Zach. you need to show her that you care about her and her job"

"i'm-"

"find them!" Jonah yelled looking at us. "come on we have a show to do"

i nod following Jonah and Daniel. we got on stage and started our show.

halfway through the show. we started to sing In Too Deep. i started to sing the bridge of it.

'I'm in too deep
Can't touch the bottom with my feet
Don't know what you did to me
I can't breathe but I'm living'

i tear up singing and turned the mic off, walking off stage and pushes through some people into the dressing room. i held my head into my hands and cried.

"hey, what happened?" Corbyn said sitting beside me.

"i love Taylor and i don't want to loss her"

"i know mate, we need to finish the show. we can talk after"

i nod, following Corbyn to back stage. i pause myself on the step biting my lip.

"it's alright" Corbyn said holding his hand out. i take it following him once more.

tears rolled down my face, singing my part of 8 Letters. i only have two lines but it cut me inside.

Jack and Jonah rub my back, i cried into Jonah chest as Daniel took my mic away. Jonah helped me off stage, going back to the room. i fell into the couch crying.

"is this about Taylor?"

"yeah"

"tell me what happened?"

i told Jonah what happened looking down. 

"i'll say you puke or something, go to Taylor and fix it"

"we're right in the middle of a show-"

"go, we have five songs left. it's fine"

"t-thanks Jonah" i hug him and grab my things going to my car. i drove over to Taylor's apartment, parked the car, running up the stairs and knocked on her door.

"coming Amanda!" she said, opening the door. her smile changed into a frown. "what do you want?"

"you"

"what other cliché lines do you have up your sleeves?"

"i love you Taylor and it wasn't right of me to think just about myself. you're the longest relationship i've ever had and i don't want you to stop your job just for mine. i don't want to move to LA without you but your already settled here. this is the hardest thing i will have to do. know i love you so much and nothing will ever stop me loving you. you're a New York girl and i'll be a LA boy. what i'm trying to say is w-w-we should take a break" i said crying biting my lip.

"you came here from your show to break up with me?" she ask lifting my chin up.

"i don't want to but right now what do we do?"

"you didn't even ask if we could try long distance or anything to save us. if you loved me, you would have something else but those words. enjoy LA then, hope you have a great time" she tears up as tears rolled down her face and close her door.

i stood there wanting to knock again and say it's a joke but it would hurt more seeing her crying at the airport or talking to her over facetime. i could hear her cry, i need to go inside and hold her but what would that do?

i go into my apartment, closing the door, went to my room and cried into my pillow.