What happens when two broken souls meet again with each other after 10 years?
To find the answers let's explore the journey of Sidharth and Shehnaaz aka SidNaaz together...
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They were lost in each other's embrace. They even didn't realise how time passed away in between each other's arms. Suddenly Shehnaaz separated herself from Sidharth's embrace and stood up from the couch. She was about to leave when Sidharth held her hand from behind. She stopped but not looking towards him. He stood up and faced her to him.
"Shehnaaz, look at me!" , he said.
She was still looking downwards when Sidharth tipped her chin up to meet her gaze. Her those beautiful eyes were wet with tears where as he looked at her with questions in his eyes. This gaze! Shehnaaz always feared to look into his eyes which were as deep as the ocean and as calm as the sea. She was unable to face his intense gaze. She broke the eye contact and was looking here and there. She couldn't do this. She didn't want to hurt herself again. "Shehnaaz! What happened?" ,he asked again.
"I can't do this. I don't want to hurt myself again!" ,she said with a shaky voice.
Sidharth could understand her fear. He always blamed himself for this.
"Shehnaaz I know why you're saying this but trust me..."
"Trust?! Whom?" He was about to say further when she interrupted. Anger and annoyance was clear in her voice.
"Shehnaaz, I'm sorry. Maaf krde mujhe?" ,he held her shoulders from behind.
She jerked off his hands and turned around towards him.
" Sorry?! After wasting 10 years of my life you are saying me sorry? Kis baat ki maafi chahiye tujhe? Tune kuch galat kia tha kya? Nahi toh! Mae padi thi tere piche! Tune toh kuch kia hi nahi! Puri duniya ko laga mae tere piche padi hu kyun ki mujhe Mumbai mein mera career set krna hai! Tu chup tha jaisa hamesha se rehta hai!" , her voice lifted and tumbled off with in an angry huff.
Her words were piercing his heart but he didn't say anything. He deserved this. Shehnaaz was right. He couldn't take stand for her when it was needed. People accused her wrongly. Blamed her for those things which she even couldn't think to do with him but still he was silent. She took all the blames and accusations on herself happily but in return she just expected one thing and that was assurance. The assurance that he would be there for her, the assurance of him that he also loved her the way she did- selflessly, unconditionally and religiously. But he failed to give her that assurance. When she expected that now he would tell her about his feelings he remained silent. When she needed him the most he wasn't there beside her to support her emotionally. Yes, he deserved this! His chain of thoughts broke when she further continued,
"Tujhe yaad hai woh din Sidharth?! Jab mae aai thi tere paas sirf woh cheez shunne k liye jiske liye maene puri duniya ki har ek ilzaam aapne saar pe le li thi haste hue? Lekin tu ussdin bhi bol nahi paaya! Kyun bolega? Mae galat thi na! Maene tujhse pyaar kia tha lekin tere liye toh mae sirf dost thi na? Ek dost jisko tune sahara dia tha aapne ghar mein kyunki woh naayi aayi thi! Tune toh ek bade dilwale insaan hone ka subut diya tha sirf bss maene hi galat samajh liya uss sahare ko!" , she started sobbing.
" Shehnaaz... ", he mumbled her name.
"Mt le mera naam Sidharth! Accha nahi lagta tere muh se! Mera pyaar ek tarfa tha... Maene maan liya... Abb bohot din ho chuke hai uss baat k! Abb mujhe iss mein nahi padhna! Mujhe tujhse dur jaana hai! Mae tere bagair hi thik hu Sidharth, tere sath nahi!" ,she said while crying.
"Meri baat toh shun ekbar Sheh..." , he was trying to say something but she stopped him.
"Leave! Just leave me Mr. Sidharth Shukla! I'm not more than your co-star so keep it professional! I told you this before nah?" ,she said in anger.
" Bss ek baar... " ,he pleaded.
" I said leave! " , she shouted.
Shehnaaz knew that he left from the sound of the closing door. She sat on the couch hiding her face in her hands. She cried out loud. She couldn't get caught in this whirlwind of emotions. Enough of this! She decided. She would leave Mumbai after this web series. Before coming here she was a rising star in Punjabi industry. So she would go back there again but not here in Mumbai anymore.
I lost someone who was like an younger brother to me and after two days Sushant's news came. He was my inspiration. Tragedy is both of them died by suicide. I was hell upset and shattered after that. I didn't know how to react. I was numb. I wasn't well enough to pen down a new chapter and I didn't want to update something which I didn't write with my heart. So I decided to take sometime to calm down myself.
That's why I was unable to update anything. Again sorry for that. I'm sure that you guys will understand me.
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Take care of yourself. Take care of your loved ones. Remember that mental health is important. Don't ignore it. Talk with your close ones. Share your thoughts with your near and dear ones and always remember that ending your life isn't a solution of problems.
