Where did Jerrie go ?

Part 2

JESY POV

Jade and Leigh are out partying, no surprise there. Pez and I are still on the bus, we've been chatting for hours, about nothing really. I'm thinking about bringing up her and Jade last week because I'm 100% sure we didn't get all the info. I finally make the decision to ask but Perrie speaks up.

'Have you ever thought about your sexuality?' She asks

'Umm...no not really' I reply

'well I have' Perrie states

I sit up on the couch to show her I'm listening

'actually I've been thinking about it a lot recently' She continues

This admission doesn't surprise me if I'm honest. No one is 100% straight and I never thought Perrie was an exception. I didn't think it was something she thought about often though, especially whilst being with Alex.

'yeah? Have you spoken to Alex about it ?' I question

'Nah...I will, but I don't think it will bother him right ?' She looks for reassurance

I shake my head, agreeing with her not really knowing what his response will be but wanting her to continue.

'I love him, obviously that doesn't change I just don't think I'm completely straight, ya know' Perrie adds

At that point Leigh and Jade stumble back in drunk, not wasted, but giggly.

I suppose this specific conversation now has to end but I want to say one last thing so I hug her to get to her ear

'I love you always and I'm sure Alex will say the same thing' I whisper

I wonder if she told Jade this the other day and that's why they were acting differently. It would make sense.

PERRIE POV

I'm in the shower, I don't really shower this early but I was the first person up and didn't know what else to do. It's not common for me to be the first of us awake, but I didn't really sleep. My conversation with Jes last night helped but I'm still a little stressed. I don't think people will really be surprised that I'm not straight I don't hide anything I've just never even realized it in my own head until recently. We go home tomorrow so I guess I'll tell Alex then. Should I tell the girls today ? I'm not gonna lie the girls were and are the people I'm most scared to tell. Not because I think they'll have a problem with it...it's just we have to change in front of each other all the time and we've always been touchy feely kind of friends, what if they feel awkward? But Jes didn't seem to, though we didn't get to fully talk about it. I'm most worried to tell Jade. I know she's an amazing ally, but we used to joke about dating... and then the other day I really felt like kissing her, obviously I wouldn't because she's straight and I have Alex. I've never thought that about her before but I suppose coming to this realisation has made me think of things I never considered. I won't be going into this much detail when I 'come out' to them. Oh god *chuckles* that would be sure to make Jade uncomfortable.

I get out and dressed to go into the main part of the bus. I walk out and find that Jade is now up and making herself a tea.

'Ooh you making one for me?' I say cheekily

As I spoke Jade jumped, she obviously thought she was the only one awake.

'Pissing hell... Perrie you scared me' Jade whisper shouted in an attempt to express her emotion but not wake the others.