Where did Jerrie go ?

Part 4

JADE POV

We're recording today and I have never been this nervous to go to the studio. It feels like I haven't seen the girls forever, but it's only been about a week and that's normal. Time seems to be going so much slower than it used to, I think Perrie constantly being on my mind is one of the reasons for that , it's consuming. She posts on instagram and I'm immediately happy to see her, but then I let myself analyse my reaction and begin to feel guilty and honestly just stupid. I'm always fighting with myself and it's exhausting. I ought to get going or I'll be late for studio.

My car pulls up outside the studio. Brilliant, the first thing I see is Perrie standing outside and it doesn't look like anyone else is here yet. I half want to just stay in the car until someone else arrives...but I can't make the driver wait. I get out of the car slowly, trying to waste some time. It doesn't really work though because as soon as Perrie sees me getting out of the car she runs over and wraps me in her arms, It seems as though she's missed me too. As I hug her I forget feeling guilty about wanting more from her and instead I'm just happy to be back together.

'jadorreee, hi' my heart flutters

'hey Pez, you're earlier than usual' I state but it's a question

'yeah I know I was just eager to get here and see everyone, it was boring at home anyways' She answers

'Not happy to be home?' I ask

'Yeah I am but the atmosphere's just kinda strange at home' Perrie tells me

'You and Alex not getting on well?' I ask concerned, feeling an element of hope that I try to ignore

'I don't know. We haven't had a big fight, just the same argument over and over. Honestly it's just draining being around him at the moment' She explains

'awh Pez why what happened? You seemed so happy before' I question showing I care but trying to not show how eager I am to hear their problems

She looked like she was about to answer when Leigh and Jesy appear behind me. I smile just to reassure her, maybe we'll talk about it later. When I smile to her she grabs my hand, this contact caused my heart to speed up. I ushered the four of us inside as I felt awkward standing there just holding her hand while my heart beats at a million miles an hour. We usually have some time until people are actually ready for us so we all take a seat inside. The four of us are on our phones, just talking here and there.

'Girls...?' Perrie says to get our attention

The sound of her voice brings a smile to my lips. I'm such an idiot. We all nod and put our phones down to show we're listening. I'm curious as it's usually important if we make sure everyone's paying attention first.

'uh...I told Alex...like I 'came out'' She tells us but she looks a little confused herself

Maybe this is why Perrie and Alex are having a problem at the moment. I'm not sure though Alex never seemed like a bad person, I wouldn't expect him to be homophobic.

'That's good right?' Leigh asks a little wary

'I suppose' Perrie replies

'Did he not take it well?' Jesy questions

'um... I'm not really sure. He didn't say anything horrible. It was just not what I wanted to hear, he wasn't overly supportive' Perrie details

'What did he say Pez?' I encourage her to give more details

'It's just like...he didn't say anything that showed he still loves me'

She begins to tear up so I move next to her almost by instinct. The feeling of her body heat makes me regret the decision but ...maybe I should just let it be today. She's sad and she doesn't need me acting weird. I'm pulled out of my thoughts as she continues to recall the event.