Getting my hopes up just to be disappointed come quite naturally for me.
After weeks of not hearing from Daniel, I started to worry. And lately, I've been skipping meals again.
Being alone with your only thoughts suck. Nothing to drive you away from the negativity. All the memories of the people who called me names from previous years crept their way back into my mind.
Worthless... Conceited... Outcast... Pathetic... Stupid... Unlovable...
By now the tears were pouring out of my eyes faster than I could catch them. Each label I remembered pierced my heart more.
Oh how I wish I had my razors to relive my pain right now. However, there's another way out...
Stumbling to the cupboard, I pulled out a small container of pain killers.
He doesn't care.
I don't care.
No one cares.
I minus well just give up.
After dumping the contents into my hand, I grabbed a glass of water and chugged it all down. Pills and everything.
Dizziness overwhelmed me before I collapsed on the spot.
*Unconscious Visualization*
A familiar valley stood proudly behind a 15 year old me.
I was sitting on the ground with my childhood friend Melanie.
We are having a great time before she brings up something out of the blue.
"You know, since you're going to the hospital soon, and we probably aren't ever going to see each other again, I'd like to tell you something." She started, tucking a strand of her straight, blonde hair behind her ear.
I began to tremble after each word she spoke.
"You say you don't want to talk about your feelings and whatnot, yet you bring it up all the time. You force others into sympathy. And frankly, it's pretty annoying. You also bring other down with your negativity. The aura around you right now is giving me the chills.
I've heard some pretty rude things about you behind your back, and no offence, but I agree with them. You frustrate me with every word you say."
"N-no, this isn't true. T-this ca-can't be true!" I raised my voice, shaking my head. "Y-you're lying!"
"I'm afraid not. What I'm trying to say Ava, I'd that I'm done with everything you do and I don't want to talk to you ever again. Goodbye, Ava."
With that, Melanie stood up and left me. Just like that, while I sat there eyes wide, mouth agape, and hands uncontrollably trembling.
And I realized that I just got smacked in the face with reality.
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Forget Me, I'm Broken
Короткий рассказShe was alone. Everyone hated her. They kicked her around and called her names, all of which but her own. She had no friends, no family... No life. Worst things worst, she's been living at a mental hospital for impaired teenagers after being diagn...
