My Blue Rose (Phantom of the Opera)

Chapter 23 - Loss

Carly's POV:
I leaned over the counter and reached for a wooden spoon. Erik had said we could hire a cook but I enjoyed it so I told him I would do it. I carefully stirred the pot of noddles and smiled. I moved to check the meat and laid a hand on my belly. I was two months along and very proud of the tiny bump I was getting. Erik was proud too. He talked about his baby every time he had the chance. We had decided on Allison if it was a girl and Jake if it was a boy. They were favorite names of mine and Erik had happily gone along with it. He wasn't much into name choosing.

A lot had happened in the month since I had told Erik I was pregnant. The most important thing was the the children at our kid's group accepted his face. One day during a particularly violent game of football Erik's mask came off by accident. Erik hadn't been pleased at the thought and terrified of the screams he thought might come. In realty no one had. They had been surprised but they had grown so close to Erik that they didn't think much of his face. In fact, when he was outside, playing with them, he never wore the mask. I was very happy about that. I liked him without the mask.

I carefully set the table for dinner and was turning to check the noodles when I felt a sharp pain through my stomach. I held it and screamed. A moment later Erik appeared in the doorway. I looked up at him and he didn't say a word. After turning off the stove, he scooped me up in his arms and carried me to the car. I saw blood staining my dress and I knew what had happened. I sobbed and held onto Erik tighter. I think he knew what had happened but was wishing it wasn't true. We arrived at the hospital and the doctors started to run tests. Erik never left my side. The pain in my stomach had stopped but had been replaced by a pain in my heart. After a while the doctor came inside the room and said sadly,

“Mrs. Destler, I am sorry. You miscarried the child. We ran some tests and we believe the he had some medical issues.” I held back my tears as did Erik. Neither of us liked to cry in front of people.

“It was a boy?” Erik asked. I didn't know how he managed to control himself but I was grateful. If he had broken down in tears I wouldn't have been able to handle it. The doctor nodded. Our little Jake was dead. I held my now empty belly and tried not to think of the loss. The doctor told us we were free to do but he wanted to run some tests later on to make sure I could still bear children. We walked out of the hospital and drove home. Erik led me up to our room and helped me into bed. I was so tired. The whole day had drained me. Erik laid down and I curled up beside him. Suddenly I couldn't hold it it. I started to sob like there was no tomorrow. For our little Jake there wasn't. Erik rocked me and I could feel his body shaking though he wasn't making a sound. We were alone again. I had almost been a mother. I had grown so attached the baby in my stomach. I wanted him back. I wanted my boy back. The more I cried the closer Erik held me. I finally sobbed out,

“Erik, he is dead.” I felt a few of Erik's tears hit my cheek.

“It was for the best, my love. I am sure there was a reason. The doctor said that he had problems. Maybe this was God's way of sparing him the pain.” I buried my head in Erik's chest as he said it. It was the truth. But I didn't want to believe it. I wanted my baby back.

“Erik, I want him back!” I cried until I couldn't weep anymore. Even my tears were gone. I hurt but couldn't cry. Finally I fell sleep. I couldn't take it anymore. My only hope was that I could still bear children. There was still the possibility I might have children.

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Author's Note:

Dear Readers,

Sorry to do this to ya!!!! Maybe? Well, I will put the remaining chapters and you will love me once again. By the way CarlySullivan9 gave me the name Jake. Thanks, Carly!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Don't give up ya'll!!!!

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