My Idol

10

It's December 17 so the award shows that I attended are finished. I already have 4 awards and 2 Daesang awards overall! Except for the MAMA award show. It is scheduled for 23. Congratulate me!

I'm here at a mall for a fan signing event here in Seoul.

I'm already here sitting as I finished having a speech for my ML.

I'm wearing a winter fashion that suits me for this December.

I look at the people around me. They are taking a video of me so I wave at them. All of them.

I stopped when one of my fans came up with my album.

"Hello.", I said and smiled at her. She bows shyly.

"Hello. I'm a big fan of yours!", she squealed and gave me the album to sign.

"Thank you. What's your name?", I ask as I open the marker. And she said her name.

"You have a beautiful name for a beautiful lady.", I said and smiled as I was signing. I saw her blush a little and just bow a little.

As I finished it she gave me a small cute stuffed toy dog.

"Thank you for this. I will take care of this.", I said and the bodyguard told her to move because there were fans that were waiting. We fist bump and wave at each other.

This time it's a boy.

"Hello senior!", he said as he bowed and gave me his album.

"Senior? No no.", I said and chuckled.

"But I'm the same as where you are studying. So you're my Senior.", he said made me shocked.

"Really? I'm glad I have a fan at school. Thank you. What's your name?", I said shyly. While signing.

"You have a lot of fans in our school anyway. Your album is so good! My friends and I are playing your music in our room if we have time.", I looked at him shocked and amazed, I finished signing it.

"Really? I don't have time to go to school daily though. Thank you again. Someday I'll go there.", I said and he bid goodbye.

And the fan sign event is finished. So I had my last speech for them. It's been an hour that I'm doing that.

I think I signed 100+ so my hand is tired but they gave me a lot of gifts! And some letters too! Some are weird while I'm talking to them. You know what I mean by weirds right?

I already left to go to the car. We are struggling to go out because a lot of people are circling me with my bodyguards. I just wave at them and smile.

As we are now at the outside we are still struggling. A lot of people are calling me and giving me something but Mr.Joe just got it for me.

The guard opened the door. I immediately went in as Mr.Joe quickly went to the driver's seat.

A lot of fans are still outside so it's hard to start the car.

Then I saw a lot of guards at the side giving a way so that no one would be injured.

I looked at the side mirror then I saw some running to follow us.

I ignored it as Mr.Joe drove away.

This is really what an idol feels huh?

Is this how Senior BTS and TXT live too?

"They gave me a lot of gifts and some letters.", I said calmly.

"Can I read some letters?", I ask the manager.

"Of course, you can.", he said and got some letters to read in the little box.

Oh yeah. While I was signing a fan asked me what ML means and what JM means. So I told her that ML means My light or it can be anything as long they give meaning to it. But she prefers my light so I said she's right. And I said to her what JM meant, it's Just Me or just my name Jung Min. So it has two meanings.

I read some good and bad. But I read it. I'm a human too so I understand them.

People are mixed anyway. People are both bad and good. So I understand. I just read half of the letters. I'll take a nap.

After 2 days the teaser for my mini album will be released. They have a lot of comments and views at the same time for the teaser of Burn The Snow.

I already have a Vlive account but I'm not doing it yet because of my busy schedule.

My hair went back to black since that's the color of my hair when we shoot for the mv.

I'm here doing a photo shoot right now.

After this, we will practice for the MAMA performance.

I will perform the Bring the Pain with a dance break. The event place will be in Japan. After that, we will fly back and talk about the collaboration. We will discuss things about that.

The camera was filming when I saw it in the corner so I waved at it. It was my break time so I went where the camera was.

"Hello.", I said and waved.

"Hi, I'm JM. I'm here doing a photo shoot. When will this be released?", I ask the cameraman.

"I don't know.", he whispered. I just nod.

"I miss my black hair so here is it. Is it bad or good?", I ask him and he just nods with the camera.

"By the way, Merry Christmas to everyone. And oh yeah New Year is coming! I have a New Year resolution this time. Every new year I don't do resolution before. How about you?", I ask him. He just nods which means he's making a New Year resolution.

"I've been busy these days and exhausted this week. Before I forget thank you to the fans for supporting me. Without you, I don't have any awards. I promise that I will do my best to make you happy and I will make sure that I will work hard.", I said and I acted fighting. I chuckled at my action.

"I can't say anything. I'm not like this you know, acting cute. I know my friends out there know me. They don't call me Mr.Emotion man without a reason. Well, I'll explain. Sometimes I'm not in the mood but sometimes I'll be happy, funny, angry, sad, etc. That's what I am. My emotions changed. So the others.", I said and nodded with a sad smile. See?

Then I smile back.

They were calling me now so I bid goodbye to the camera and the cameraman and left.

I'm practicing for the performance because in just days we will perform it.

So we are doing overtime.

We are doing the dance break.

I saw a camera that was filming me. I just ignore it like I didn't see it, I drink a little water and sit as I wipe my sweats. I saw some backup dancers practicing the choreography. I watched them practicing. Some are making mistakes but they are teaching each other. I stand up and go to them to teach the dance. That made them shocked and shy.

"Don't be shy around me guys. I'll teach you the dance. What part do you not get?", I ask calmly as I go to their front and look at them in the mirror. And they told me what part so I teach them. They make mistakes because they are forgetting the little parts thing.

"JM check your schedule on your phone. I sent it to your email.", Mr.Joe said as he was looking at his phone. I nod and I look at my schedule for tomorrow.

It's just a practice straight and one day being a guest in a show.

I rest for a little bit and wear a wireless headset to listen to some songs to relax my mind.

I've been so stressed. Luckily in 25, I can have that as a short vacation with my family. It's been so long since I didn't saw them. But tomorrow of that day I will promote my mini album. According to my schedule, there will be a music festival that I will attend and perform with other group members.

So I texted them that and they are very happy to see me again.

Well me too. But I need to be careful. I'm an Idol now.

We are practicing right now and when we are finished I greet them an advance Merry Christmas and thank them for their hard work.