Love mechanics FF 2 (Love Again)

Let's Talk

Mark's POV

A warm and gentle touch on my cheek wake me from my sleep as I stir my eyes open only to have them staring at P'Vee's eyes that were already fixed on me. A moment most people would find to be out of a romance novel and would love to have experienced including me, in any other situation that is but this is for from our perfect fantasy. All it reminded me of was my own stupid self from back then that was leaning over the drunk senior, reminded me of the day that led us here to this point.

"What are you doing?" I yelled slapping his hand away from my face before jumping off to stand in front of him. I glared at him trying not to show my anxiety that was making my heart race. I know what I said about not being bothered and that is true as long as we are talking about staying at a comfortable distance but this was too close for comfort. What even gave him the idea that it was okay?

'Stupid' I cursed myself for being out drunk again knowing where exactly I was. P'Vee sighed as if annoyed gaining my attention again.

"What do you think I am doing here out at an open beach?" He asked gesturing around us, pointing out the obvious that we are surrounded by a lot of people under an open sky but does he think I have any better expectations of him? Except that I do have a better expectation.

I rolled my eyes and turn around ready to walk away as I had nothing more to say but P'Vee grabbed my wrist which made me turn back to face him "Wait" He said and all this made me gulp swallowing the bittersweet taste of alcohol that was still fresh in my mouth and I shrugged his hand off mine involuntarily, honestly it's not the older that scares my now it's the fact that being close to him makes me feel a certain type of weird and I fear that I might lose my rational thinking again and make some stupid decisions.

"What now?" I ask instead of walking away.

"Lets talk." Said the senior making an undescribable face and I don't know what pushed me to nod but looking at his face at that moment I could not have refused knowing full well that I was going to regret this decision considering me own feeling were all over the place ever since we met at the beach that night.

We decided to walk away from the crowed area of the beach where all the engineering students were having a party. P'Vee walked a few step away from me giving me my comfortable distance maybe he knew I was trying to be in my comfort zone, not that he is a person to understand such thing. We stopped at a quiet place not too far from where our fellows were but still far enough to be quiet.

"Talk about what?" I asked halfheartedly as if I didn't care and just wanted to get it over with but the reality was far from that as I was really curious on the inside to know what the older had to say after so long. Maybe I was asking for excuses, for him to feed me lies, asking for anything that might ease the still felt pain in my heart everytime I see this person even though I knew no matter what he said would be nothing but an excuse.

"I don't know I just wanted to talk." He said sighing making that undescribable face again. 'What was that face? what is he trying to convey? pain? sorrow? guilt? I don't want any of that.'

"So I can leave?" I asked gritting my teeth in a stern voice before moving to leave.

"Mark please just talk to me." He said and once again grabbed my wrist stopping me. I turned around to pull my hand free but stopped seeing the pleading look on the others face, sighing I took my hand away but didn't leave. "Okay but talk about what?" I said in a rather compose voice this time.

"About us..." He said stopping to think what he was saying I guess "I can't forget, I can't let go, I try but I can't move on. I know what I am saying is selfish but..." He stops again looking at the sand below our feet before speaking again "I miss you Mark and I love you" he added
in a shaky voice and the words stuck in my head like curse those words unknotted a lot of emotions from disgust and hatred to agony, selfpity and loneliness. "Can we not start over again?" and here it goes with those last words all my composure was thrown out of the window.

I laughed not knowing why but it was not a funny laugh or a sarcastic one it was a laugh that mocked me instead of the person in front, a laugh that stated 'Isn't this what you wanted idiot' Yes I wanted excuses, I wanted to have a reason to forget or forgive but that is not enough no matter how much I wanted it. He just silently watched me with a concerned look waiting for my to say something not saying anything.

"P' can we not start this all over again? didn't we already end this?" I replied composing myself again as I stare at the older.

"I know but..."

"But what P'" I interrupted "It was over long ago, a whole year ago. I was stupid enough to have trusted those stupid words and that led me where?" I continued but I could feeling a burning sensation building in my eyes which I suppressed "it led me to being treated like trash." The words out of my own mouth broke my composure as the tear escaped my eyes.

"Mark...I.."

"You said you liked me" I cried at this point, no matter how hard I tried to look strong I no longer had any control, I had these emotions and complaints pent up for so long that it all just flooded "Then you went and kissed Ploy even after that you treated me like a criminal and a literal trash and you still have the guts to say you love me." I whipped my tears and turned around, finally deciding to leave before I got more emotional But froze when P'Vee hugged me.

"I am sorry" He said

Let's just see where this goes cause I still don't know what I am writing
Anyways who here is a student and is upset about online classes and exams?