Use to be~ Robert Georges

Voices in my head

Roberts pov
It's been a few days since we heard the news about y/n's dad. He was a good guy, he was like another dad to me. Him and y/n were so close. I haven't seen y/n in a while I call up the boys to ask if they could check up on y/n with me. They all said yes and when we got in the house it was quiet usually we would hear y/n's laughter but we didn't. We checked her room and she wasn't there, we spilt up to look for her I checked the bathroom and she wasn't even there either and then her dads room she was laying there...

It was y/n laying on the bed lifeless with pills a blade and letters besides her.

Y/n's pov.
For the past few days random voices have been coming in head like when I was younger. I would have these old flashbacks of me and my dad together. These days all I've been hearing was "he's looking down on you" well I don't want him to I want him with me next to me. I can't stay home with my mom she doesn't even like me.

The voices in my head would give me different ways to kill myself. Maybe that's what I want. I wrote a few letters. 1 for the boys 1 for My mom and 1 for Robert.

For the boys
Hey guys. I know you guys are reading this right now. It isn't your fault that I'm dead. Tbh I don't even know what to start with. Please don't cry, I deserved to end it. I was always there for you guys when you needed me and I'll still be there, I'll probably will be looking up on you, but you guys already know where I'll be going. Anyways I will always love you guys even when it's hard to love you sometimes, please stay strong for me just know I wanted this. I love you guys❤️ and tell Mo I love him even when he just came back. It's for the best of me to be gone. I should've done this when I was younger cause these thoughts keep coming back.

Dear mom
I know you wanted a new daughter now here's your chance to get one. All these years of dad defending me have been gone and I'll be gone too. I hope you live with the fact that you'll get a new daughter that wasn't me just like you wanted and your the other reasons Why your daughter has killed herself. I wish I could've ended my life when I was younger just like I wanted. Anyways I hope you rot in hell❤️

Dear Robby❤️
Where can I start? When I first laid eyes on you, you looked so adorable but when I got to get to know you were annoying and I would always get mad at you but I couldn't stay mad at that face. I think I kinda caught feeling but now it's kinda too late. Please don't beat yourself up. I deserved to die, I should've done this years ago before I met you so you didn't have to witness it. But at the same time I wouldn't haven't met thee Robert Georges🥰 I love you❤️

Roberts pov
Y:guys PLEASE CALL 911. Ro:why?- no she can't die. I grabbed the letters and put them in my pocket. The ambulance came and they took y/n away from us. I can't lose her I just caught feeling.

I called her brother Mo and told him what happened. He kept panicking and by that he came to the hospital. Mo:did she write a letter? Y:oh shit yeah she did. I take out the letters out of my pocket and saw 3 letters. One that said for the boys, her mom and one for... me.

Mattia read the one for us. My eyes started to burn but Mo read the letter for their mom and I never really thought y/n's mom was like that. Y:Mo, was your mom always like that? Mo:yeah. That's why I took care of y/n like she was my child. Y:what did y/n mean by 'the thoughts keep coming back and I should've done this when I was younger.

Mo: Well when y/n was in 6th grade my mom wanted her to become a person y/n never was, like she wanted y/n to cook clean and barely have freedom. As we all know y/n loved to play sports and play things girls never really liked cause she was y/n, but one day she told my dad that she joined the varsity basketball team and she was the youngest of the group but better then them. our dad told her he was proud of her. So she told our mom about it and our mom told a y/n that she was useless and wished she had another daughter. From that day y/n had surgery for something, she wouldn't even wanna talk to us. Her back would face us and she's ignore us and she told her doctor she couldn't.

Ro:what did she mean by couldn't? Mo:she didn't want to live anymore. So she kinda ran out the hospital and hid in the stairwell crying her eyes out. The doctors were looking for her then this doctor named Alex Karev found her *if you watch Greys anatomy👀* she told him she couldn't he asked why and she said she had these thoughts in her head and she wanted to die and be gone forever. that was my little sister talking my 12 year old baby sister. All she wanted was my mom to love her but no my mom hated her cause she didn't want to be her house slave. I always took care of y/n even when we were a few years apart I was like her dad, my dad was always there for her but would work a lot but he would take breaks after what happened. All y/n wanted was love and affection from our mother. But she didn't get it so she'd try to take her life away.
Y:damn y/n never talked about her past life all she cared did was care about us. Mo:yeah y/n never liked her life back home, she only cared about The people she cared about and never cared about herself.

K:I'm sorry to ask this but why'd you leave? Mo:tbh I didn't leave, my mom took y/n away from me cause I use to do drugs but I never treated y/n bad. I loved her like she was my kid.

We stood there crying about y/n. Mo:hey guys don't cry. Y/n is a fighter she wouldn't want this for you guys. I didn't want to read my letter cause I know y/n wouldn't die.

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Dr: hello? Are you the visitors of y/n y/l/n. Ev:yes? Dr:well y/n is now alive but she needs to recover. Y:could we see her? Dr:you can see her now.

We went inside her room and we see y/n looking at us I hear her mumble "fuck" Mo ran up to her hugging her. Mo:why tf did you do that? You had me worried I can't lose you ever again. Out of no where y/n started to laugh but it seems like she was crying. We all look at her like she was crazy.

Y/n:I don't know why. These thoughts I try to run away from them but it keeps giving me new ways to kill myself. She starts to laugh. Alv:why tf are you laughing. Y/n: I don't know. Okay I just can't live like this. Mo:shhh y/n it's okay. Im gonna live with and I'll never leave your side. Y/n: are you gonna go to school with me. She starts to smile. Mo:duh, what kinda question is that. Ro:damn you guys
have a better relationship then y/n and y/s/n. She starts to laugh but not like the crazy laugh.

Y:Mattia why are you smiling at your phone? Did you meet a girl? M:maybe. Y/n:it's a yes or no question. M:okay fine.yes. Y/n:yessss!! It better not be Cynthia or Jenna I'm not tryna see you heart broken. M:it's not. Her name is jora....
y/n: don't worry I won't make her run away kid.