Use to be~ Robert Georges

Keep your head up

All I've been thinking of is my dad. I stayed home for a 2weeks yes bitch 2 fucking weeks. I finally decided to go to school and just not try to impress nobody.

I wore my dads hoodie and our matching basketball shorts with some Nike slides and didn't even bother to brush my hair.
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When I walked in at school everyone was looking at me, I went in my locker and I heard everyone whisper about me. Someone slammed my locker and closed my finger in it. Y: ugh you fucking bitch. I turned around and I see it's chase. Ch:hey y/n, how are you doing? Y:well as you could see I'm doing amazing. Ch:are you sure? Y:just spit out bitch your wasting my time. Ch:well I hope your poor dad is doing amazing just like you. You heard everyone start to laugh. Y:okay that's it. You charge at chase and he falls back. You then jump on him punching him. I punched him one more time and he got knocked out. Y:if any of y'all wanna talk about my fathers death run up. Everyone became quiet. Y:that's what I thought. You went outside to the soccer field to sit down in the bleachers crying quietly. Y:why me, I need you papa. I whispered
??:you okay? I turn around and it's coach. Y:hey coach, I'm okay. Co: C'mon you don't have to lie. I haven't seen you in a few weeks , talk to me. I rest my head on his shoulder. Co:its okay kid take your time.  I took a deep breath and said y: my dad died a few weeks ago. Also my brother is back to protect me from my mom. I've been having suicidal thoughts like when I was younger I've also have voices in my head and I tried to commit suicide last week.

Co: don't worry y/n. When my father died I had no one by my side besides the dream i had . I tried to do the same things you did but no I decided to chase my dreams and to be in the nba and now look at me im now a retired nba player and I'm talking to an amazing girl who's put in the same position as I was and she Isn't keeping her head up her crown is falling. Don't worry about the things that are in your head. It's stopping you from making your dreams. Y:thank you coach I can't put in words on how much I appreciate. You've always been there for me even when my life is drifting apart. You deserve the world sir, thank you. Co: No y/n don't thank me. Thank yourself look how far you've grown. The girl who was in 6th grade who broke her coaches ACL. Yikes.😂 and now your an amazing brilliant girl who's just facing reality. I got up to hug him. I whispered "coach when I got the WNBA please be my manager. I appreciate you and I won't take no as an answer. Co: I'll stay. By your side Y/l/n. Now keep your head up your crown is falling. Y:bye coach.

You see the guys looking for something or maybe someone at the gym. Y:hey guys. They all are startled from you. Mo:y/n dumbass we were looking for you.

Y:sorry. I just needed to blow off some steam. M:damn I didn't know you could blow off steam by beating the living shit out of chase. Y: if he didn't talk about papa I wouldn't do anything. Mo:what did he say about dad? He says upset. Y:well he asked how I was doing and I said as you could see I'm doing amazing and he said well I hope your poor dad was doing amazing then everyone started to laugh so I rocked his shit. And Mattia I did blow off a lot of steam during that. Mo:it's good that you did the things I taught you. I love you. Y:ight I love you too. can I skip school? Mo:with??

Y: with coach I'm just gonna be in the gym all day. Mo: I saw you talk to him earlier. What was he saying. Y: well I just told him what happened and he told me to keep my head up cause my crown is falling, and he's been through the same thing I went through and he told me to chase my dreams the voices in my head were just stopping me from my dreams in life. Mo: he's a good man. Y: I asked if he wanted to be my manager if I get drafted in the WNBA. And I won't take no for an answer. Mo:he better and what he said was right pick your head up kid. And you have a doctors appointment.

Y/n: what do you mean doctors appointment?

Mo:look, can you please go for me. I want you to be happy and I need my little sister in my life. I know I've been gone for a while and this just happened when I came back. I just want things to be back to normal.

Y/n: ight just for you. I say giving him a hug.

All of a sudden I heard people "Awwing"

I turn around and see the boys smiling and roshaun fake crying.

Kairi:I need my bestie Westie back.

Y/n:y'all do realize I'm gonna be taking Antidepressants? Right?

Ev:yeah.

Y/n: okay.

But I won't be the same Y/n y/l/n they want me to