words i didn't say / nalu

seven

-- natsu dragneel --

there's definitely tension between lucy and i, no doubt about it. she wouldn't talk to me this morning and my texts from last night were all left unanswered.

i hate it. i miss her.

i'm currently sitting in the second row in class since that's where jellal sits. we're supposed to pair up with our partners and get started on the project. to be honest, i wouldn't have minded moving seats if it weren't for loke taking my spot.

he looks so stupid, putting on the shy act for her. just looking at him makes me want to punt him over a fence.

jellal sees me gaze sideways every once in a while. he was previously focused on planning this project down to the last detail because that's just how he is.

"natsu." he snaps his fingers in front of my face. "focus."

i cross my arms and groan in response.

"it's lucy, isn't it? you two don't seem to be on good terms from what i've seen this morning."

"we had a sort of argument yesterday. it seems she already trusts loke more than me."

jellal sighs. "i don't think it's that, i think she's just giving him a chance. lucy is very good at making friends and putting her trust into people. she doesn't believe people can hurt others until they do."

"that's not the best mentality."

"it's not the worst either. she gave you a chance, didn't she?"

i begin to fiddle with my pen. he's not wrong, and that sort of bugs me. i hate how jellal is always right, i've hated it since the day i first met him.

we weren't exactly the best of friends from the get go. he was this smart and annoyingly handsome kid that girls fawned over. he just seemed like mr perfect.

then i learned we're not all perfect. he failed a lot of his tests because of stress. his parents had put a lot of pressure on him.

jellal seemed strong on the outside, but it was evident that he was weak-minded. he let things get to him.

me and jellal are quite alike, and i think that's how we became such good friends.

"i used to hate you too. you were always so quiet and shy. if it weren't for erza, i don't think i would have given you a chance." the blue-haired boy stated. "as for lucy, she did it without a second thought. i think you should apologise."

apologise? say sorry?

easier said than done. i can never say the words i want to say. while my mind may be filled, the sounds that come out my mouth stay silent.

jellal sighed as the bell rang. i could tell he was stressed since my problems stopped us from finishing the plan.

why did i have to get paired with a perfectionist? and why did lucy have to get paired with a pervert?

i return the chair to its original desk and jellal and i make our way to the cafeteria. i get a slice of pizza and a water bottle because they're the only decent things in there. the rest of the food tastes like shit. they really need to hire new chefs.

everyone minus juvia and gray are here, most probably because those two are in the same class and their teacher is stricter than most.

when i sit down i overhear the girls talking. the name 'loke' comes into conversation and i try to tune it out.

 seems like they're getting along. no doubt he'll make a move on her soon.

i can't believe i used to be friends with that pervert. we were roommates back in seventh grade and at the time i thought he was so cool for being able to pick up girls with ease. it kind of felt like watching a guy with a superpower.