Dr.Phil (Mostly K-Pop) S1 18+

🔞Part 18🔞

No matter how hard Steve tried to move on, he couldn't. He gave up. He started crying everyday, not coming out of his room, hugging things owned by Phil. He would sniff things that had his scent on them. He wanted him back.

'It was my fault this happened. He saw me that day, didn't he? It's hard telling how he felt that day... seeing someone you love kiss someone else. I want to feel how he felt.. I just want to be with him. I don't like Taemin anymore... he has become so controlling... he tries to rape me too.. I can't take this life without Phil. But I have to. The people that are most important in my life need me. I love you, Phil.' he thinks to himself, sobbing into Phil's old blanket. His sobs were most likely heard.

He heard a knock coming from his door, but he didn't get up. He couldn't. He couldn't move anymore. He just stayed in bed, barely eating. He hasn't eaten in a couple of days, since he lost his appetite.

"Steve... it's me.." Jin calls out from the other side, making Steve finally get up. He opens the door slowly, sniffling. Jin was standing in front of the doorway, with his favorite, strawberry ice cream. He gasps, taking it quickly.

"My favorite... you- you knew." Steve starts sobbing again, hugging him tight. Jin chuckles a little, hugging him back.

"And, this little girl missed you these couple of days." Jin handed over Steve's kitten, Rosie. He was in complete awe, cuddling the kitten happily. 

"I'm sorry Rosie... your dad has been sad these days." he apologized to the kitten, cuddling it more.

"Well, I'll go! Just come down to eat. Okay? Promise?" Jin looks at him, and Steve nods.

"Promise... I will. I need to eat." Steve says, petting behind kitten's ears as he speaks.

"That's the spirit!" Jin smiles at him before exiting the room, leaving him alone.

Steve smiles, his mood was a little bit lifted just by Rosie. "I love you so much... you're my comfort.." he spoke to the kitten, in which, the kitten meowed and rubbed against him. He snuggled Rosie, making her purr.

He looked at the bedside table, seeing a picture of him and Phil at the Big Time Rush concert. They had met all of the boys, and it was all of them and then Phil hugging them, also his arm around Steve.

A tear rolled down his cheek, regretting his actions. This was his fault, and he couldn't do anything about it.

-I'm such a bad person. Now I have to go see Taemin tomorrow... because if I don't I will get another threat.. or...yeah. I don't wanna get raped. I don't know what my life has come to anymore.-

He got a sudden, sharp pain in his chest making him cry harder. Rosie raised her paw up, and pat his face. He smiles weakly, but sadly.

Soon enough, he fell asleep with Rosie in his arms. Rosie fell asleep too, cuddling against him.

"Steve! Steve!" Phil called out, once he saw Steve. Steve didn't hesitate to run up and snuggle him in his arms.

"Phil... I... missed you." Steve sobbed into his shoulder, making him pat his back comfortingly.

"What? Where did I go? I saw you yesterday!"

"No... no.. I didn't see you yesterday. Y-you died.. how are you still alive?"

"I never died. You're silly, Steve. Are you becoming crazy?" Phil laughs, making Steve cry a little bit.

"No no, I haven't gone crazy. You're not alive are you?!"

"I'm alive, baby. What makes you think I'm not? Come here into my arms." he motions him to come into his arms, and he agrees to. But, he was a little scared.