I Will Reach You - Mark Feehily Fanfiction

Chapter One - Looking For Someone

I am Markus Feehily and I really love my career. Performing in front of the crowd and seeing them having fun with us playing some of our songs.
I really love Westlife, But in the first place I don't even think that I am going to be famous like this because sometimes i feel down about not saying my sexuality to everyone, Maybe my parents know about it, but even my friends doesn't know it. I don't know what to do, If I am going to tell it to everyone, are they going to say some insults, discrimination, and bashes. I don't know.

Well i really think that a lot of people will not accept me for who I am, There are a lot of people who's talking about me,

"Why Markus Feehily doesn't have a family?"

"Why Markus Feehily doesn't have a girlfriend?"

"Why Markus Feehily doesn't have a relationship with someone else?"

A lot of questions that my fans are asking or gossiping about me, I don't know, I just think that I am not yet ready, and I am not yet ready to tell the truth, Fuck it, lets say that I am way to afraid Goddamn it, I wish I am just better than this. Who can manage all the things that you need to face. Its just there's something inside me that i need to tell to everyone but for godsake  I don't have a courage.

I have a friend her name is Nyssa Faye Protacio, and she is the one who understands what I am experiencing Right now, about my sexuality, about looking for someone to love me for what I am. She is way too much younger than me but She's my favorite best friend that i know. She's always there for me, When I am feeling so alone, the good times and bad times. I know that she loves me not just a friend but I can't love her because I am not a straight man who can love a woman i just can't.
She is a Filipina and Now She's still studying, She's just High School for now and I watch her grow up, and i really love her, I will take care of her, When someone's there to say something bad. I will always defend her, because that's what friends are for, helping each other.

To be honest she's really cute, She's kinda Nerdy type, She's 5'4 and its average, Short Hair, White skin and the thing thing that makes her so much cuter is her Face, Her CHUBBY FACE, ughhh damn i always wanted to tease her because she's always blushing, I told her to lose weight but i really love her chubby body i just wanted to tease her she's just really cute! xD.

She's too friendly and her parents told me to keep my eye on her because we don't know maybe she's having a boyfriend or some shits. Yeah thats how protective them for NisaFiy hehe, Darn sooo cuteeeeeeee!!;-)

By the way I am just in the house relaxing and just searching for some boys in the tinder hehe, Nyssa told me to do this and i don't know i just wanted to try, Fake name, Fake identification and Its all fake but my Age its my real age, I am 35 right now.

Right now we are just relaxing, I called some of my friends, Shane, Nicky and Kian. I want to tell them what am I experiencing right now, i wish they can accept me.

*** After a few hours ago ***

Someone's knocking my front door, I really think that it was the lads
*He opens the door*
Oh hey guyss whats up?
Nicky: oh hey Marky , what bring us here?
Shane and Kian:  Oh yeah Marky?
Mark: oh yeah, Lets have a sit first you guys wants something to drink?
Shane Kian and Nicky:  you know it Mark we want a beer!xD
Mark: Coming right up
Someone's knocking the door
Kian: okay I'll open it
Nyssa: oh hello lads
Kian: oh hey Nyssa whats up?
Nyssa: i just miss my bestiee yknoww;)
Kian: oh yeah of courseee
Shane: oh hey nys, how are you?
Nicky: yeah nys, how are this cute girl doing?
Nyssa: oh I am just studying all the damn time, I need to pass the exams
Kian: you really love to study huh?
Shane: yeaa she loves itt of course dudeee
Nicky: i hope that you can pass it!!!
Nyssa: thank youuu!
Mark: oh hey here's our drinkssss, Oh hey Nys, What are you doing here???
Nyssa: is it bad for me to visit my bestieeeeee???
*Kian, Nicky and Shane laughs*
Mark: why the fuck this girl is so cute inner self, Oh yeah of course you do, you can go here anytime you want.
Nyssa: yeyyyyy!!! Okay sooo A beeer oh cannnn i have some hihiiii
Kian Nicky Shane and Mark: absolutely not, your still 16.
Nyssa: oh yeah sorry hehe
Mark: just have a juice
After a few minutes later

Mark's POV
Right now, I am going to tell them the truth About my sexuality and about the person that i wanted to have, of course its same gender as me. I hope that they can understand it. Nyssa already knew about it. Oh so lets seee

So guys as you can see that I am not having a relationship and being single for a couple of years and having a relationship with a girl named  Lauren doesn't work out. Its just because I am not in to woman, I am into a lad, I am not straight, This time i really thank god for having a courage to tell this to you guys. I am not straight, I AM A GAY.
As you can see right now, I am not having a relationship with someone else, I tried to love a woman but i can't, things just doesn't work out, I also wanted a family like you guys have, You guys have a wonderful family, I am kinda jealous about you guys, having kids, sons and daughters, thats all i ever wanted. Just to have a one happy family, but it seems like  it's not the right time. I wish god can give time to say it to the crowd about me, for me, to accept me for who I am, we all deserve respect.
I just always feel empty, there's always inside me that I can't let it out. I wish you guys can understand what I am experiencing Right now.

Shane:We all understand you Mark. I wish that you can came out that early, but its fine Mark, we are a band and we need to support each other.

Nicky: Yes that's true Mark, We are one, we just need to help each other.

Kian:  True, don't worry Marky you can find that one man will treat you the best. One man can that you can have a family with. Lets just wait and pray to god, Oki Marky?

Nyssa: Don't worry Kuya Marky, you'll find that special person. Don't be in a hurry there's a lot of time to find someone.

Markus POV
I really thank god that i have a supportive friends like them. I feel so grateful to have them. Yes Nyssa is Right I don't need to be in a hurry, there's a lot of time to find someone.
But the thing is I need to focus on my Career and lets wait. I just need to gain more courage to say it.

Nicky: Yow Marky! Lets have a good time, Lets drink and lets open the karaoke here in your house lets sing some of our songs.
Kian and Shane: Oh yeah great ideaa! 
Nyssa: can you guys sing I will reach you, its my favorite song promisee! And kuya Mark's Voice is so Amazing!!
Mark: Alright, Alright, lets sing our song I will reach you for our lil baby, Nyssa.

*Everybody's got an answer to a question that they need to know*

*Still broken over one thing, I didn't ask you, Do you have to go?*

*Now I am looking for a reason it isn't easy but i gotta have hope*

Nyssa's POV
Yes its true, that everybodys got an answer to a question, Yes I am thinking about kuya Markus, I am thinking that he can solve his problem and he just needed hope

*Sometimes it could be harder to remember than to just let go*

*Always seems to be something to remind me of what i miss the most*

*Cause you were the one thing I believed in when it all falls down*

I wish that i am the one who's being with him but its impossible, I wish that he could reach me by all of his heart, I just love him so much, I know that its really hard to forget but I am only 16 and he is 35 darn it

*Oh Yeah*

*So if you have a candle you better light it now*

*Then if you have a voice you better shout out loud*

I wish i have a voice to tell it to him but i know that he will just say that he love me as a friend, i know that he's always there for me but its not enough, I know I am being selfish right now but i really love him i really do.

*Raise your hands above this crowd and i will reach you*
*Can you hear me, Can you hear me now*

***After the song***
Awww you guys have a wonderful voices thats why you guys are my favorite boyband! And you kuya Mark your my favorite!

Lads: thanks Nys, Uhm i guess lets sing another song huh, okay lets see...

To be continued.