i can see your scars ~{changlix}~ Finished

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Felix p.o.v:

As soon as i busted through the door he laid a hand on olivia. That was the first and hopefully last time i had truly lost all control. It felt as if i became a different person. As if I've had enough and all of the pent up anger was finally showing. In all my 17 years of living, i had never dared to lay a hand on my parents or anyone for that matter. Because i know that against my father in this never ending battle, i will never win. I'm trapped in a never ending labyrinth of physical and emotional abuse. I'm stuck in it forever. No matter how much i fight i know that I'll never win. It will only get worse after this but at least he'll only mess with me from now on. I'm ready to take that chance. (A/n: wow writing that really hurts...i was never physically abused but i was emotionally and mentally. There was a time where my depression (i dont get help for it because my mum doesn't believe me) got so bad that i thought I'd never get out. Even still quite often now. But in the past before i got a little better i had tried taking my life multiple times and failing. I'd cut every night and sit there for hours losing sleep thinking that there was no hope, please if you ever get stuck in a mental space like that don't ever be scared to dm me. I know how badly it sucks and i don't want anyone else to feel that way :( )

(Warning: mentions of child abuse, i will put a non triggering summary at the end of the warning so you know what happened)

I felt an adrenaline rush and lunged at him tackling him to the ground. I punched him as hard as i could multiple times. I was crying while doing so. I was scared. Scared that olivia would view me as this monster. Scared that I'd end up like him. Scared of what was next to come. Unfortunately for me, my adrenaline rush was short lived and he flipped me over choking me to the floor.

"Ha! You think you can beat me you pathetic waste of air! I regret ever having you! The only good thing about you was your mother." He spat out gripping my throat harder. I was slowly fading in and out of consciousness.

"NO!" Olivia screamed trying to pull him off. He had just threw her back and she hit the wall. In the split seconds he removed his hand i twisted really hard pushing him off of me and started to stand up. I breathed hard.

"P-please leave her out of th-this. I-I started this." I said out of breath. He just smirked and walked over to me.

"Ok pretty boy." He ran over and punched me exactly where my lungs were. The last thing i remember was mouthing a word to Olivia.

Olivia's p.o.v:

N-No why does he keep doing this to himself.

More tears filled my eyes.

I wish i could be strong enough to fight back. But I'm not. All i can do is sit here crying and defenseless watching my brother get beaten. I was shaking. The last time it was this bad was when mum died. I just watched in horror as Felix gave a soft force smile while mouthing the words "go" before he got knocked out. I didn't want to leave him. I really didn't but i did anyways. I cried and sprinted while my jacket was covering me.

(End of trigger warning. Where in Olivia's p.o.v. go to end of chapter to read what happened.)

I didn't know where i was running to, but i kept running to wherever my legs took me.

When i stoped i noticed that i was in front of the cafe. It was busier than the normal time i usually went. I slowly opened up the glass doors and saw to boys playing a hand game behind the cash register. One familiar and the other not. When the door closed amd jingled the boys both looked over to greet me. They both had ahock evident on their faces but Changbin had quickly ran from behind the cash register and said, "lets take you to the staff bathroom to was your face...yeah?" I just smiled and nodded. His friend looked confused but eventually went back to work.

When we arrived to the staff bathroom he didn't even question me. He just took a paper towel and carefully started to wipe off my face where the man had slapped me. He also wiped off my nose which was bleeding, i of course had no clue. I went to wash my hands and i pulled the sleeves of my jacket up a little. After drying my hands i turned around to see him looking down near my arms where my jacket i had pulled up my sleeves. He wore an unreadable expression.

He worriedly sighed and asked what happened to me. I lied in response saying that i face planted on my way here. He looked like he didn't believe but didn't push any further. When we got out the bathroom i asked "Can i stay here till closing time?" He just looked down at me with a look of hesitation on his face. "It's ok. i understand if you can't." I said with a sad tone.

"No no, it's ok. You can stay." He said with a warm smile.

I sat at a table and had quickly fell asleep.

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I could feel myself being tapped awake. "It's closing time" the boy said while smiling. I stretched and smiled thanking him while i was about to walk out the door. Right before i had made it to the handle changbin had called out for me, "wait!" He smiled then handed me a bag. I tried to keep from tearing up by bowing and saying thank you. I quickly made my way back home and snuck into Felix room by window, of course being careful with the bag filled of sweet treats. I set it down on his nightstand and began cleaning his cuts. When i finished i had just hugged him and whispered "sweet dreams lix. You deserve it."

(Trigger warning summary: Felix fought his dad and had lost. Right before he lost he had mouthed for Olivia to "go" just referring for her to run out of the house. This is where it switches to her p.o.v. and she just talks about how she wishes she could be stronger for Felix)

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A/n: sorry if it seemed rushed. Im tired af. Anywho woahhh 4 updates in a row wowww I've becoming addicted. Also dang i updated 2 books in one night. Im proud of myself. I'm dead tired tho so goodnight/day!!

3:52 am weds.
June 24, 2020

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