I'm being me

staying 😓

Rosè's pov

I was now at my dorm.Seating down in the living room while trying to forget everything.It is just hsrd to forget it.Many things are happening today.Everything has been revealed,i broke up and  my mom came back.My life are now falling apart and getting worst.I wish i am not even alive here.Suddenly i heard the door open.

"Oh you guys are ba-" i stopped talking as i saw my mom.

"Rosè,your mom is gonna stay with us for now okay?" Jisoo unnie told me.

It makes me feel so annoyed.Why does she even want to live with us.

"Yah,get out of here.You don't deserve to live with us." I told my mom

"Rosè, don't be rude to your mom." Jisoo unnie told me

"Who cares . When dad died,she throw me out of the house so why can't i do the same." I roll my eyes and walk towards my room.

"Aigoo, I don't even know why i have such a daughter like her.She doesn't deserve to live." Yeah , you are right mom.I don't deserve to live.

I don't even know how am i gonna stay in the same house as my mom.I just do not want her to be here.

As i was sesting down on my bed,thinking about stuffs that is bothering me so much,someone knock on the door and i could tell that it will be Jisoo unnie.

I told her to come in and i was right..It was Jisoo unnie.She closed the door and sat next to me.

She held onto my hand.

"Rosè-ah,i know alot things had happened today am i right?" Unnie asked me in a soft and sweet tone.

I nodded.I could feel tears forming in my eyes.

"So Rosè-ah,first thing j wanna tell you is that don't be uoset because of the break up.I am sure you will fine a better guy than him." She tried to comfort me.

"Unnie,this is my mom fault.If only she did not ask me to date Jimin,i would not fall deeply inlove with Jimin." Tears starting to stream down my cheeks.

"Rosè, i know you hate your mom right now but please don't.I know she is the caused of your dad died but still , you should not hate her.She is your mom.No matter how much you hate her,you still need to appreciate her because she brought you to this world.She had took care of you since you were little s-" i cutted her off

"No,who say so she took care of me since i was little.She did not ever took care of me.My dad was the one that took care of me.All my mom did was going out with alot of guys that are younger than her." I told Jisoo while remembering the thoughts of it

"I remember how my mom treat my dad.I remember how my mom shouted at my dad.K remember how my mom stole my dad's money just to have fun.I remember my mom taking everything away from my dad and even me.I remember how...how..how..how...how..how s-s-she k-k-ki-killed m-m-m-my d-d-da-dad." I could not help but to cry more.Jisoo unnie hug me.

"Unnie,my dad has suffered the most.I should have appreciated him more.I hate my mom!I HATE HER SO MUCH!" I just cried harder and harder.

"I wish a mom like her doesn't even exist in this world.She is not worth it to be a mo-" i was cutted off by Jisoo.

"Rosè, don't say that.She is your mom.No matter what,you need to still love your mom.

I get off from the hug.

"Unnie,tell me..tell me now..tell me how can i love her when she just care about money and guys money and guys money and guys.She never even care about me.She never care about dad.She never even care about the household.All she care about is money and guys." I couldn't help but just cry harder.

I just can't help but remembering the thoughts of my dad made me feel alone.

"I will let you calm down and be alone for now.I know you are hurting but please don't treat your mom like a trash." Before Jisoo unnie went out of the room , she closed the light of my room.

I hug my knees while looking outside.The night sky thst is filled with stars reminded me of my dad.That was the last day i got to be with him.I went to the park with him and we saw stars.We lay down on the grass while watching the stars.

"Appa..i miss you.I really do.No one could understand how much i hate eomma but you could understand.Appa,i want you back alive.I am hurting now." I told to myself.

Jisoo's pov

I went out of Rosè's bedroom.Before i walk away from her room,i heard her saying something.I lean against the door to hear what she was saying.

"Appa..i miss you.I really do.No one could understand how much i hate eomma but you could understand.Appa,i want you back alive.I am hurting now." I could clearly hear what she said.

Rosè,i understand how much you hate your mom but ... You should appreciate your mom before she is gone too.