"What?" I said. I literally wanted to fucking run away from him and just cry in one corner.
"Er, I'm getting married tomorrow." He said. I could tell he was feeling very awkward seeing me here. Of all the fucking places.
"Oh. Hehe. Good luck then." I said. I didn't know what else to say. I mean, yes I still love him but he obviously doesn't feel the same way so, I decided to just pretend that I have moved on. I gave him a smile, stepped on my cigarette and walked as fast as I could to get away from him before he sees me crying.
"Anne! Stop!" He said. I could here heavy footsteps behind me, I presumed that he was running towards me. He placed a grip on my arms. "Look at me."
I didn't want to. I was already crying. Tears were flowing down my face. I don't want him to see me like this but instead of running away, I followed him and looked at him. What a fool.
"Hey...." He said gently and used his thumb to wipe the tears across my face. I could smell the cigarette burnt on his fingers. I've missed him. He didn't change much. I guess he gained weight in a good way. He grew his beard a lot which I liked. I looked him in his eyes the whole time although he wasn't looking at mine.
I woke up and grabbed his hand and stopped him. "Don't..." I said. "Look, Let's just go our separate ways and live our own lives like we've been doing for the past three years." I said.
He stood up straight and breathed in deeply. "You cheated on me! You!" He finally said it. He left me without saying a word. I didn't even get to explain to him because he changed his numbers and email. And now, after three years, we get to talk a day before his wedding.
"You didn't even let me explain things to you. We didn't talk about it. You left me without giving me closure and now three years later, I see you almost getting married here. I don't want to ruin things." I said. I continued crying.
"I couldn't break up with you. I loved you. So much. So much. More than anything and it hurts that I wasn't enough for you that you had to sleep with another man. Jesus!" He said.
"We were drunk! I know that's not an acceptable reason but we were and I'm sorry for that. I'm sorry that I cheated on you. I'm sorry that I cost you pain. I'm sorry if you felt that you weren't enough because you are, you still are to me and I still love you." I said. I continued talking without even thinking what I was saying. "Yeah. I still haven't gotten over you. After all these years. I'm still in love with you. Not a day goes by that I don't regret what I did to you, Michael. I would give up everything just to be with you again but I won't and I can't. I'm honestly happy for you that you found a girl who is right for you." I said.
I couldn't here anything but his breathing even though the place was filled with noise. I chose not to listen to everything around us, i chose to listen to his breathing, I felt that we were in a separate place. I felt like we were the only two people in the world, no one else.
"Anne..." He said.
"Don't worry, I'm not trying to win you back. Obviously you don't love me anymore so, I'll go and I hope we could still be friends after everything. Good bye, Michael. I will get over you." I said and turned back and walked away.
My heart skipped a beat when he wrapped his arms around me and held onto my shoulders and looked straight into my eyes. "I don't want you to..." He said.
"What?"
"I don't want you to get over me." He whispered into my ears.
I felt happy for a second then felt guilty. "Listen to yourself, Michael. You're getting married tomorrow. Go to her." I said although every word placed a knife to my heart.
"After I left you, I barely slept. I drank a lot, I partied with different women everyday and slept with them. I was hurt and I didn't know what to do. I wanted you back but I was afraid you'd do it again. Days turned into months, I made myself busy with work. I wanted to get over you but I couldn't. My friends saw how sad I am that they set up blind dates for me and after a few dates, I met this amazing woman. She's ambitious, pretty, smart, funny, she's a charmer. I saw you in her. I fell in love with her right away and asked her to marry me. I thought I could get over you after I've proposed to her but everyday after that, I wished you were that one I was going to marry and stand beside on the altar. I wanted you still. I wanted you but I didn't know how to.
I was afraid of myself. I realized that I still love you after all these years. You're still the one for me. I don't want anyone else. I love you, Anne. Please don't get over me." He said.
I didn't know what to say. I just cried because I wanted him to say those things. I realized that he really loves me. I love him even more. I want him back. But I was afraid and guilty.
"Stop it, Michael. I don't want you to leave her for me. She obviously loves you. I don't want you to leave your fiancee for your ex who cheated on you. Go to her, Michael. Marry her tomorrow and make her happy." I said. It hurts but I didn't have the guts to ruin their relationship just as I did with Ewan and Eve.
"Anne...." His voice was so soft and gentle.
"Good bye, Michael." I said and walked away again. This time I didn't hear his foot steps, he didn't follow me anymore. I cried as I walked away for him once again.
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Yay! Hope you guys are enjoying.
I've forgotten how much I love this.
My first fan fic ever. :)
