jades diary🖤

Chapter five

Dear Diary,

Things have been weird between me and the beautiful brunette since she confessed her feelings to me. I have been avoiding her. I didn't want to face the fact that I had never really told her exactly how I felt. I really don't want to. I am so bad when it comes to expressing feelings. Half of me wants to just avoid her forever and never have to deal with any of this, but I know I couldn't possibly stay away from the stunning half Latino for much longer.

My bones are aching to be near her. My skin is dying to touch her. I want her so bad. I have never wanted anything more in my life.

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I walk into Sikowitz class and sit in my usual spot next to the beautiful brunette. As I sat down and class started, I kept my gaze facing down so I wouldn't make eye contact.

I felt her eyes burning into my cheek as she stared at the side of my face. I removed my hair from behind my ear and let it fall in front of my face so she wouldn't see me blushing.

"Tori, Beck, Jade, Andre, Cat and Robbie, you will be in a group" said Sikowitz. I have no idea what that means since I haven't been listening to anything he was saying. All I know is that that meant I was going to be with Tori more than usual. Even though I was trying to avoid her, I couldn't help but feel exited.

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Later that day, Beck, Andre, Cat, Robbie, Tori and I where all sitting on the orange couch in the middle of Toris living room. I was sitting next to Andre and on his other side sat Tori. By then I had figured out that the assignment was to create a short film about someone having a hard home life.

I was "casted" as a girl being beaten by her father. just great! I really don't like this theme. Tori was "casted" as the girl who finds me crying outside during the middle of the night. Knowing I had to act like this in front of Tori when I have been trying my entire life learning how to hide those emotions was terrifying.

It was the middle of a scene when Andre was chasing me and trapped me in the corner. He started screaming at me about how worthless I was and how he wished I was dead. I felt the all too familiar feeling in my throat as the tears started to build up in my eyes. I felt as if I couldn't breath. My hands where shaky and I felt light headed. I got up and walked briskly up the stairs heading to Tori's room, my head down the whole time biting my lip in attempt to stop the tears from over flowing and pooping out of my eyes.

I finally found my way to Toris room. I walked in and my knees weakened as I walked around her bed and made my way to the floor. My face in my palms as I cry uncontrollably. I find myself gasping for air in between sobs. Tori then walked in at first looking confused but when she sees my her jaw dropped and she went from confused to concerned. I turned away attempting to hide my tears. She rushed over to me and sat in front of me.

She leaned in so close that I could feel her breath. Now holding my hands she squeezed them even tighter every time I took a breath. She pulled me in closer so that my face was pressed against her small chest. I could smell her strawberry sent as my tears start to slow down enough that I no longer have to gasp for air.

My tears continued to slow as I lay there in Tori's chest not daring to move. I gained comfort the longer I stayed there. She then motioned for us to get up. She helped me to me feet and held my hand as we took two steps to reach her bed. We both sat down. She looked at me but I looked away embarrassed for what just happened and dreading the question she might ask.

"Hey it's okay" was all she said. I turned to face her to see that her comforting face. "Jade, what happened? You can talk to me" she persuaded, trying to understand what might have gone wrong. I just shook my head and looked down. I wasn't ready to talk about it. By the way she nodded I could tell she understood that.

Both of us sat there in silence, though it wasn't in the least bit awkward. I felt comforted by her presence. "I like you" I blurted out softly. Tori grabbed my hand and said "I like you too Jade" I rolled on top of her and pinned her down to her bed I slowly went down and breathed on her neck. I let my lips brush against her softly. I then kissed her collarbone and then moved my lips up next to hers. I pressed them softly against her not kissing her just yet. She then put both hands behind my head and pulled me in as tight as she could as I kissed her roughly.

We stayed there for about an hour. Me just kissing her and occasionally grabbing her small and round boobs. Then I decided to put my hands under her shirt and move them upwards till they reached her bra. I unhooked it and aggressively tore it off her. I grabbed her bare boobs and moved my lips to her neck. I listened to her softly moaning as I sucked. At first it was soft but then gradually became harder.

When I finally released my mouth from her neck I laughed as I saw the bruise I had made. I rolled on my back next to her. I grabbed my pear phone to see that It has been four hours since I first arrived at her house. I then swiped to the camera and quickly snapped a picture of her neck. When I shower her her jaw dropped. "JADE! How am I going to hide that?!" she said pretending to be mad. I laughed while saying "You're not! That's the point!" She gasped and than giggled. I knew people would find out she's mine and part of me was scared but there was nothing else in this world I was more proud of.

I hugged her goodbye and thanked her for everything and then left.

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Authors Note:

I am so sorry this took so long but I have been in and out of the hospital . I hope you liked it though. As always if you have any questions or suggestions let me know! Thank you for reading:)