special | mark tuan ff

chapter 3

YUNA'S POV

i nervously started to walk up to the stage and saw the members gather at the stairs to help me. jinyoung and the guy with long hair helped me, i think this is jb? as i stood upfront i was literally shaking, what if i do or say something wrong?

i was taken aback as i felt someone put their hand onto my shoulder. i looked who it was and it was mark.

"don't be nervous i'm here, now look there and smile" he flashed a smile and pointed at the front of the stage where a camera was. i did a peace sign and smiled.

when the picture was done they said that i should sit down at the side front of the stage as they will perform, oh right they're idols. i looked at jinyoung as he was fixing his in-ear mic he saw me and smiled. holy- i think my heart stopped beating for a sec there. i felt my face burn up so i held them.

then mark went up to me. "i wish you can watch us upfront to see us perform better but i guess here is okay" i don't understand why he keeps talking to me. i looked into his eyes a bit more, i don't know where this courage is coming from. i don't know why he's even staring back. if i don't stop i think i'll melt.

"mark-ah!" i looked away for a second. god, how long did we look at each other?

"oh i gotta go, i hope you'll enjoy the special treatment you'll have" he smiled at me before going infront. oh my god that smile.

they were really incredible dancers and singers. i feel really shocked whenever one of them comes near me. i guess this was the special treatment mark meant. my eyes would often widen and i would giggle but i mostly just put up a straight face.

they were performing girls girls girls and i was really surprised when yugyeom did a body wave dance infront of me. i just covered my eyes and just peek through. jackson showed extra things like putting his hand in my shoulders and he even gave me his cap.

as i fixed his cap i was taken aback when i saw mark doing dangerous flips, i felt worried. the he started walking towards me. my heart was beating so fast oh my god. we just kept staring at each other as he raps. he's really good. he then sat next to me and held my hand. he started to cup my face and slightly touch the side of my lips.

"every lady wants a piece of me" he winked before walking away. i covered my mouth with my hands

when the performance ended the crowd clapped and cheered and so did i. i felt like i'm out of breath on what just happened. i pretended my hand to be a fan as i my face felt super hot and red.

"oh my god yuna is blushing!" i heard bambam say and all eyes were on me. i covered my face cuz i was super embarrassed.

they all went near me and i tried to calm myself down. i inhale and exhaled repeatedly and saw them all gathered here.

"are you okay?" yugyeom asked who was sweating. i just nodded, i couldn't afford to answer i was too embarrassed.

"we should take it down a bit, she can't handle all of us" jb said and they all laughed.

they went backstage one by one and mark went last. he whispered something to me before he went down.

"you look cute when you're all red and shy" now i'm even more embarrassed. yah! mark tuan!

they performed the next songs and i reacted the same. i mean i'm still a girl and who wouldn't resist their charm? even the students squealed. at the middle of the performance jackson went near me and suddenly put my sleeves up. i didn't know how to react, i just took my hands back from him and i began to shake.

when the song and program ended i just stared back. what if everyone saw i've been cutting myself? what would've happen?

us 8 all went backstage as they said i was going to go to their dorm for 2 days to 'hang out' jackson went near me.

"hey uh yuna i'm sorry about earlier, i might have went a bit too far" he scratched the back of his neck.

"n-nono its okay, i was just startled" i faked a smile. he smiled back and then went with the others.

i sighed as i held my wrist, they still hurt and i just bit my lip to not make any noise. i just looked at them cleaning up and resting. i don't know what's gonna happen with me with them.

then mark suddenly sat next to me. i looked at him as he puts a towel at the back of his neck. he then drank in the bottle and looked at me. those eyes look really familiar.

"quit staring, you're too cute" he closed the cap of the bottle. should i ask him? what if it isn't him? i'll be embarrassed.

"what are you thinking?" he asks. oh no, should i just ask him. i'm having second thoughts about it.

he then held my hand. "tell me.." that deep soft voice really reminded me of him.

"w-we're you the who cleaned my cuts earlier?" i asked as i avoided his gaze.

he didn't answer for a while so i looked back at him. he was staring down and nodded. i sighed then facepalmed. out of all people an idol helped me, great.

"a-aren't you glad it was me?" i heard mark say. i stayed quiet, still thinking on what to answer.

"i wish you didn't see that.." i quietly said to myself but he heard.

"why not?" i didn't reply.

"if i didn't saw you alone there, you would've still cut yourself even more. i don't like to see people getting hurt" he says as he took the hand from my face.

"where'd you put my blade?" i asked hoping he still has it.

"as far away as possible from you" he stood up and i frowned.