"I am thine to command" {Prince of Tennis fiction}

A/N + Trivia + Drafts

A/N: *** It is not OOC for Kirarin in Chapt 11 at all, her character is not fully revealed yet, I'm still developing her character, so tis is the inner spirit in her, where she's able to evoke all the darkest memories in one and let them experience despair. Isn't it cool?! Tat would be the 'special ability' of hers, when she has the noble blood running in her veins, juz lyk how Keigo is blessed with his insight. Wat's more, she'd experienced a childhood trauma too, so it adds to the credibility of Kirarin's ability, especially when she's in danger, or when she is cornered, or when her class is insulted. Don't forget tat Kirarin is an Atobe after all; she won't tolerate such insolence when it concerns her class.

There's a reason why I chose the Black Forest (Schwarzwald) in Germany as the setting, there's a flashback to it, after a few more chapts~

I chose the setting to be winter in Germany, as I was inspired by the anime FATE/STAY NIGHT, the scene where Illyasviel von Einzbern meets Berserker in the coniferous forests. I got the inspiration of Kirarin's 'special ability' from the notion of dementors in Harry Potter.

When Kirarin's inner cacodemon is awakened, the thoughts will all be in 3rd person narrative. Where it is the cacodemon tat's taking over Kirarin, ruling her subconscious mind. It's not exactly a split personality. Though I was inspired by the split personality of the protagonist in Artemisbexter's work 'Forgotten'. Go check it out~ (:

Trivia: I chose the name 'Kirarin' for a specific reason. Coz 'Kira' can function as a family name, and 'Rin' a first name. Also, 'Kirarin' can function as a first name too. Tat's why no one in her school suspects tat 'Kira Rin' is not her full name.

Furthermore, her name reflects her character & personality. As 'Kira' symbolizes 'dark' [Persian-Greek] or 'light, sun, sparkle' [Japanese] and 'Rin' symbolizes 'cold & dignified'. Doesn't it suit her? (:

Other trivia: I didn't wanna write a fighting scene, coz I feel tat fighting doesn't really suits Kirarin's gentle demeanor. I didn't wanna write a rape scene either, which I guess some of you might hv predicted, coz I don't lyk to repeat stuff, remb I already wrote a rape scene in my other story? The scenario of Kirarin being kidnapped & tortured came to my mind too, but it will give rise to lots of complications, and I guess some of you envisaged the kidnapped scenario too, so I wanna come up with something tat's totally unexpected, so here it is~

I was listening to Kuroshitsuji- Alois Trancy's Theme- The Full Moon Slightly Chipped- Cover while writing this chapter.

I realized that in tis story, the appearance of Keigo is very similar to Alois Trancy~ except for the beauty mark~

Wanna c how my draft looks lyk?

"Let go of me, otherwise you would regret it." Kirarin uttered.

"Lyk what?"

"You're the one who's trapped here. What can a mere girl lyk you do anything to us?" The guy taunted.

"You don't know what I'm capable of."

"Oh yeah?" The guy challenged.

"You wouldn't lyk it if someone assassinate your father right?"

"You wouldn't lyk it if the company your dad runs become bankrupt, right?"

"You too, doesn't your mum runs a foreign fashion.

Tat's how my draft looks lyk, so damn lame~ tis is wat happen when I've got zero inspiration~ so, pls do comment anything, coz somehow it will become an inspiration for me to craft a chapt.

Here's another draft, if Kirarin is the evil one.

Kirarin could hear muffled cries and whimpered moans assailing the recesses of her mind. 'Stop! Please stop it! I can't- I can't take any more of this!'

An insane cackle of glee resounded in the landscape, as a maniacal grin appeared on Kirarin's pale face. "Ah! Those tortured souls are so delectable~ I can't wait to devour them~" The malevolent spirit in Kirarin let out rhapsodies of praises.

'Noooo! Who are you?' Kirarin asked.

'I am you, my royal highness.'

'NO that's not possible, you're lying. You can't be me, I'm not that- I'm not that... evil.'

'I am the manifestation of all your vile and corrupted thoughts. Do not try to deny it. Did you not commit a sin of incest, with your blood brother nonetheless? Did you not wish you hadn't given Keigo your eye? Did you ever not think of betraying Keigo, running away with the one you truly love? Are you not toying with Keigo's feelings? Even just now when you were attacked, did the idea of assassination their loved ones as revenge not come into your mind?'

'I- I- '

'Do not try to deny it, Kirarin. I know every villainous thought that crossed your mind. You are a black hearted fallen angel...'

If Kirarin were evil, it would b a major turning point, but it would b highly psychological & I'm not skilled to write such stuff so I gave up on tat line of thought~

What if Kirarin was angelic?

A delicate figure materialized in the snowstorm, with ivory skin and shimmering silvery tresses, which blended in naturally with the snowy-white landscape. Feathery ice crystals, displaying delicate six fold symmetry, were swirling around her, encircling around her body in a spiraling pattern, like a whirlwind.

It was the rawest existence of Kirarin, body pure and untainted, with sparking blue eyes, which expressed innocence, joy, and hope, those raw emotions, which have faded away in her life, forsaken and cast aside.

'Who are you?'

'I am you. I exist in you. I'm the purest form of you. I'm the young you who wasn't corrupted by others' influence, you who wasn't tainted by others' ideals, you who wasn't impacted by external circumstances. I am the manifestation of all your happy memories, the chaste virginal maiden that exists in you.'

Tis is ok, but it doesn't really fits the angered self of Kirarin's cacodemon~ so I eliminated tis line of thought too~

Moral of the story: writing is not tat easy~ sadded~ Also, tats' why I took so long to update too~ pardon me, my readers, thankee (: