This, I Promise You

Chapter 4

Gulf's POV

"P'Mild.. Please tell me.. Is there anything that P'Mew has told you? Please tell me. I am worried.. It's like he is distancing himself from me now. It looks like he isn't sleeping well as well. I saw some of the photos that the fans posted online, he looked like a dead zombie now!"

I was whining to P'Mild, who was sitting across from me in his living room. I could not take it. It has been days, and yet P'Mew was being very cold towards me. Knowing their close friendship, I know that P'Mew must have shared things with P'Mild regarding this act. I was observing P'Mild's reaction throughout me sharing my story about P'Mew, and I was certain that he knew something that I didn't.

"It's not my place to tell you, Gulf. But, the only thing that I can tell you is that, Mew is not having a good time now. He is mostly punishing himself for things that happened in the past. He is probably doing this to protect you as well."

That flared me up. See, the thing about P'Mew is that he will never share with me on his problems. He must have thought that he could handle everything by himself.

"You mean to tell me, that he is protecting me? By distancing himself from me? But why? Because he thought that I am not good enough for him? He is pushing away my feelings as well. That friend of yours know that I have feelings for him, but look what he is doing now. Trying to push me and my feelings away. Wow." I stared at P'Mild while saying. 

"Mew will kill me if he knows that I am telling you this, but so be it. Gulf, Mew's past is haunting him. He is blaming himself for it. He knows that you have feelings for him, and that's the reason why he is doing this. Let me tell you this.. Talk to him on this when he is free, and feeling slightly better. Now, let's have our dinner. Let's go." Mild said while ushering me to the dining table.

That night, I was resolute. Resolute to talk to P'Mew, to talk about us, to talk about him.

The Next Day

I was sitting on the chair, doing my make-up when P'Mew walked into the room. It didn't take a genius to know that he has not been sleeping well, especially with those dark eye circles under his eyes. I continued to look at him, waiting for him to look up at me, but he didn't. I scoffed.

"Morning P. How was your sleep?" I casually spoke, while continuing my game on the phone.

"Morning Nong.. Good. You? Did you sleep early?" He replied while getting his make-up done.

"All good as well. I slept as soon as I had reached home from meeting P'Mild." I said while looking up at him.

There. I saw it. I saw how his body went stiffed after hearing that I had met P'Mild last night. He must have thought that P'Mild had told me about his past. I wanted to say something, but I was called by the staff to begin with my solo photoshoot first. Before I left the room, I took a quick glance at P'Mew and saw that he definitely looked worser than what I had expected.

My solo shots went by fast, and before I knew it, I was back in the room in no time, waiting for P'Mew to be done with his solo shots before we will then proceed on with our couple shots. I was replying to a few messages when I heard P'Best rushing into the room.

"Nong! Mew fainted! They had brought him to the hospital!" I froze.

"P, bring me there. Please.." I mustered up to speak out. I need to see P'Mew. I need to be there with him.

P'Best quickly drove us to the hospital, and I rushed out of the car in no time, to see P'Mew. 

As soon as I saw Nong Stu standing outside of a room, I went up to him.

"What happened? Why didn't you cancel this schedule if he was unwell?"

"We did try to postpone this schedule. But Mew do not want. He said that he need to get himself distracted.."

I was dumbfounded. I need to talk to P'Mew. I waited until the doctor had came out the room and told us that P'Mew was fine, just that he needs ample rest due to being too exhausted.

"Everyone, wait here. I need to talk to him. Alone."

I said before making my way into the room, and locking the door after I entered the room.