You're Just So Irresistible

Background: Sugar, I'm Going Down

If you don't want to read this you can just skip onto Have You Ever Wanted To Disappear, the real story starts there <3

You sit next to your best friend, Malakai, with her blue and brown hair and adorable ... everything. You are both in here for the same reason, suicide attempt. You had tried to bleed yourself out in the school bathroom, and two days later she tried to OD on Tylenol. You now both sat together on the couch, doing a unicorn puzzle on a side table. You had both done it once before, but there was nothing better to do in a mental hospital.  Malakai was fed up with all the jerks and pricks of the world, but you had been dumped almost exactly a month ago, by the love of your life. He had left you for no reason, and got with another girl two days later. That girl also happened to be the bitch of the school, and gave you terrible glares in the hallways. Thank god you didn't have any classes with her.

                That day you had totally embarrassed yourself in front of your whole first period class since you were daydreaming about Patrick Stump and you didn't repeat the teacher. (It's Spanish class so) Even your friends yelled, "Y/N!" You just wanted to disappear. After a minute which felt like five they had stopped shouting your name, but then you had to go up in the middle of the class to throw foam balls into a few boxes to earn points. By this point you were shaking and your heart was pounding so loud you thought everyone was bound to hear. You weren't good at throwing in the first place, but everyone was calling your name, or jeering or shouting "In the buckets!" and "Koby!" at you. You had missed every shot and thoroughly embarrassed yourself before you could sit down. When the bell rang you had already gathered up your stuff and bolted out the door, you were in the seat right by the door too. As you turned the corner a popular slammed into you, forcing you take a step back for balance. Instead of saying sorry, or even looking at you she simply walked past like you were invisible. At least she hadn't drawn attention to you like the others did. This continued for the rest of the day, the bumping part.

                You had fourth period with the abominable ex, let's call him Dean.  You also had the pleasure of sitting next to him -.- You had to step out of class you were crying and shaking so bad. Once the bell rang you grabbed your stuff and almost ran out the door and to your locker. You passed his new bitchy gf, and she gave you a glare that made your legs go weak. Immediately you knew what you were going to do. You thought no one needed or even wanted you anymore. You set your binder down in your next class and practically ran into the girl's bathroom. You pulled out a staple you had pulled out of a wall earlier that day and started ripping at your wrists. You had drawn quite a bit of blood before it came into your mind. Fall Out Boy. The band you adored more than anyone else and you were saving up your money to go see them in Arizona in March. You immediately froze. You knew you couldn't die, at least not yet anyways.