It Has Always Been You

Chapter 06

The air was tensed and I can feel it in my bones as every fiber of my being trembled with the pressure I feel inside. The air grew thinner as I focused on my breathing to calm myself. I cleared my throat as I stare at the blank eyes that was staring straight back at me. I bit my lower lip trying to muster up the courage to say the words I needed to say. I can hear my heart pounding loudly inside my chest; my throat drying up and my shirt slowly soaking in sweat. I pulled out a piece of paper and took a glance at what was written on it. I rehearsed it in my head before keeping it in my pockets. I took a deep breath before prostrating myself. "I'm... sorry about the last time!"

"For saying something so insensitive." I continued, raising my head taking a glance at the blank eyes that was still staring at me, expressionless. I bit my lip and subtly shaking my head. "But about my feelings ... I mean it and..." I slurred, before sighing, finally giving up.

I threw my body to the bed and stared at the bulb in the ceiling. I sighed before grabbing the teddy bear standing in the bed side, turning to the other side. Damn it! I pulled the bear to my face and stared at the bandana on its head - written on it was three letters that spells W I N.

I frowned and pinched the cheeks hard, before pulled it in for a hug. I slowly closed my eyes to sleep.

"Please leave and don't come back here again."

I jolted back to awareness, jumping from the bed. I shook my head and hugged my bear tighter. It has been days since that incident but the words he said pierced my heart deeper than I thought it did. The pain was overwhelming together with it was the guilt I had. How it haunted me for the rest of the day almost drove me crazy.

I haven't seen Win since as well. As usual, he never came to the store or even go to the convenience store he's frequent. To be honest, I'm starting to get worried.

I panned my eyes inside the room, rolling a few times in the bed, and stopped as I stare to the table in the side. From the bed, I saw the shining metal as it reflected from the light in the ceiling. That should be where my guilt stems from. I frowned, standing up. I walked to the table and stood in front of it, my eyes fixed on the ring lying in the desk. Because I haven't returned it yet.

He even said my cakes were good. I sighed taking the ring in my hand. Even though he said such praises ... I ... my hand closed on its own, clenching the poor ring inside, before gasping as I slam my forehead to the desk - too hard that it seemed like it bruised.

I need to go and apologize

🐺🐰🐺🐰

The air was humid, it was ice cold – it just rained, after all. Rain in the middle of a fairly hot season was weird and rare. But then, I know I was just distracting myself. I've decided to face him and the consequences. I also want to return the ring to the rightful owner. I breathed out to my hands as I look up to an apartment building.

The abnormal beating of my heart tensed up my system. I took fairly deep breaths with every step I take. The strength in my legs are slowly dissipating. It might have been because of the fact that I know that he would reject me just like he did before. I don't want to get rejected. I cracked a smile as I moved forward.

I turned and saw Win going out from his room. I gasped with the sight of him and quickly tried to get his attention, walking fast to his direction.

But for the sake of telling you how I feel; I won't mind getting rejected as long as you know.

"P'Bright." I heard him say in a muffled tone. He shuffled back to his apartment in an attempt to run away. I felt the door close in my feet as I groaned in pain the moment he slammed it on my foot. "P'BRIGHT!" he exclaimed, opening the door loosely. 'The perfect opportunity I needed.' I thought as I pushed the door open.