The Life of Me

October 3, 2014 11:01 p.m.

It’s been months since I’ve heard the sound of your name

It seems foreign now

But tonight when someone said it after so long

I broke down

I heard you started drinking

You’re drunk before six o’clock

You never used to drink that much when we were together

So why start now?

Are you trying to drink away the pain I caused you?

Or are you trying to drown your sorrows and regret?

I miss you, you know

And I miss the person you used to be

You’ve caused me so much pain these last two years

but I loved you through it all

And honestly,

I don’t even recognize

the boy I fell in love with anymore

And it pains me to say that,

it really does

Because in this last year I spent alone

I’d seen a darkness I would never wish on anyone

And after four months I finally saw the light

But now,

to hear about you again

just makes the tears flow

And I wish you could remember

the boy I fell in love with three years ago