Cryptic Love

Chapter 20.

          ''It isn't something you want to think about is it.. you don't want to think about the bad things.. but the good you forget, your mind doesn't allow you to recognize them. It wants you to feel pain in certain times.. times you don't want to feel pain. Or is it because, you've already felt pain? You felt as if you didn't deserve it.. you didn't think you deserved it. But people looking down on you, blaming you.. your own family.. your mind makes you think and feel as if it's your fault. It's wasn't a set up, it wasn't a drunk driver, it wasn't a dog running, no. They went to get you from a friends house, they went to pick you up. You were the target. You were the main reason for them to be on that road. How does that feel? How does it feel to know it was your fault. How did you feel when you heard the news, your parents died, they died on they're way to your friends house, to get you huh? Did you feel ashamed that your little brother had no parents. Did you feel ashamed of yourself when you forgot your mother was pregnant? Did you? How did it feel to see the pictures, glass broke, shattered, blood everywhere, car smashed. The same car they promised to pass down to you when you got older. Tell me.. how did it feel to know your parents died in a car crash, and it was all your fault."

I screamed holding my hair in my hands, I shook my head, I thrashed around, my heart was beating fast, my breathing was short. I had tears streaming down my face. I couldn't take it anymore. It's my fault. I was the reason they got kidnapped! I was the one who killed them, it was all me.

''Victoria! Calm down!'' Nick.

''She's having a panic attack!'' My breath started to shorten, then it all went black. I felt a cold hard floor and I heard screaming.. it was all my fault..

Few Hours Later

**Harry's P.O.V**

         I looked down the dark hall, the lights flickered and I sighed standing up. I walked towards her room, I looked behind me and opened the door. Her long black hair was tied up in a messy bun on the top of her head.

I sat next to her and started speaking.

"I was hoping you'd remember me.. the least I was hoping you'd the remember the day our parents baked a cake together and we stole it and threw it at the pigeons that were at the lake. Or the time we painted each others bodies with brown paint and acted like we bears." I stood quiet for a minute.

"Two nights ago when I saw you kiss Chase.. I felt shattered.. I really did- I really do like you, I was hoping I had a chance with you because the day I saw you in Simon's house was the best day ever, I realized who you were the minute you spoke. We were little kids but I keep a piece of you in my pocket. Literally. The day you left, your mom bought us half a heart necklace.. hence why I was excited for the album to have the exact song. I never forgot you.. but I guess you forgot me.." I whispered the last part.

''She never did,'' I jumped up and looked towards the voice. The man stepped out of the shadows, he looked at her with sadness.

''For a few years she asked if she would ever see you again.. we.. wanted to protect her but it seems all we did was hurt her.. unintentionally of course. I couldn't stand knowing she was our here, alone, raising Tyler.. then finding Katherine, it seemed all we did was put more stress on her. Now it's our life in jeopardy.."

"I... I don't know what to say, she talked about you guys like you were the most precious things to her.. and I see you love her.. her mom can't even stand to come in the room because she feels as if it's her f-,"

''My wife is here!'' He said and I nodded and the door open to show her crying.

''Lorena!"

"Jared!" They met each other half way and hugged. I smiled sadly, is that how true love last? Nowadays people our age don't last.. they want a fling and that's all. It's sad how we don't experience how our parents were.. we're to caught up in trying to fit in with the cool kids rather then being with someone who brings us down and uses us for what we have not for what we make them feel.

''Harry!" I jumped and looked at Zayn who had his hand on my shoulder.

"Yeah mate?'' I said getting up.

"Chase wants some time alone with Victoria," I turned and saw her awake. Chase was smiling at her with loving eyes. I sighed and got up walking into the hallway where everyone was sitting. I sat next to Louis who patted my shoulder with a sigh.

**Clyde's P.O.V**

          I opened the file and searched the hospital record until I saw it, Victoria Jones.I smiled and opened it, I flipped through the file until I found the room number. I opened the closet and took out a nurse outfit, whatever it's called. I don't care. I got dressed and fixed the max smirking.

I put the file in my book bag and headed out looking both ways before heading to her room, I passed these two boys and we made eye contact as I went into the elevator. I pressed the last floor and headed out.

I turned the knob and there she was watching a program, I knocked and she jumped a little. ''I'm the nurse, I'm going to check your fluids," I spoke low. She nodded in approval and I went to the side of the bed.

I took the needle out and injected it into the bag, "I have a question," she spoke, her voice was so soothing.. I looked at her, adoring her. She is perfect.. she's someone you would never want to loose. I nodded.

"Do you guys have any more blankets?" She asked sweetly.

"Yeah, just give me one minute," I said stepping out. I went into some random room and pulled sheets from a closet and left. I stepped back inside and spread it on her.

"Thank you.." She spoke flashing me a smile.

"No problem Ms. Jones,"

"Victoria.. you can call me Victoria,"

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Hi! I haven't updated in awhile.. I would like to dedicate this chapter to mmxvi- because of this amazing cover! And please vote and comment :)