Unsent Letters

confusion

You confuse me more than anyone I have ever met. You say you miss me when I am in Florida, yet when I come home for you, we barely talk or even hang out. It is like you know I am here and yet you choose to ignore me. Maybe I am over thinking this, but this does not feel like a friendship anymore. Yes, we have good times together when we do hang out, but I miss when we used to have real conversations and not snapchatting each other during the day. I miss knowing that I could come to you and talk about my issues without you seeming to brush them off like they don't really matter or that they will fix themselves or that with you just saying it will be okay. It is not okay; it hasn't been for awhile and I think you have been trying to avoid that for awhile now. I never know what I can say to you without you getting offended or hurt. I haven't seriously considered dating anyone since you because I don't want to give my all to someone just to watch them walk away with someone else. You give me a lot of mix signals. I just wish we could sit down and have a real conversation about all of this, about us, how we feel, what to do at this point. I think that would make this easier for both of us. Maybe we would be able to have a chance; you and me against the world. You say you wish I had better communication, but I could say the same for you. We have gotten in this habit of not talking about things with each other until they just blow up in our faces. I don't want it to have to get to that point every time we have something to say to each other. J.A.L