Unsent Letters

presence

You say you like my presence, but that stops you from having conversations anymore. We haven't had conversations really since you called it off in 2018. We talk here and there, but never conversations like they used to be. Us getting to know each other, what makes us happy, sad; stupid stories from our past; the things that made us thrive in life. What happened? What happened to that us? Whenever "conversations" happen they are just typically fights now. It's like we are in a constant battle. Or maybe you're just trying to get me to leave. You tell other people how you feel about me and how much you care about me, but why don't you ever tell me? I feel worthless to you. I feel like I'm nothing important in your life. Like I could walk away right now and you wouldn't even notice, or maybe you would, but you'd never say anything. Why can't this be easier? Why can't we just be best friends who are there for each other and will support each other? Maybe I should just walk away from this chapter of my life. I'm in so much pain and it doesn't seem like you care anymore. I try to talk to you about things but you just blow it off now. I think you keep me around because you feel sorry for me. Well I don't need you feeling sorry for me anymore, I rather be without you than be some charity case to you. I leave soon, maybe it's better to cut all communication to here. Completely walk away from this town and these memories... J.A.L