Curves and All (On Hold)

PSA

 PSA:

As of February 02, 2015, this account and these stories are over. 

I know this is more than likely a slap to the face to all my readers I so truly love. However, this account was made out of some feelings and deep depths that I no longer dwell in. It has showed my progress as a person over the two - almost three - years I have been on Wattpad. My stories have come to an dead end for a reason. I took it to that point of trying to conform to meet the standards of the books I like yet still make them like my own.

I would stare at this screen for days trying to figure out what I could possibly write that didn't sound like bull. The unnecessary amount of cursing and slang and trying to pass it off as super urban. When I first started We Got That Thug Love, it barely cursed unless it was another character but then I started doubting it, like I did all my books.

In Curves and All, she was supposed to be as big as the girl on the cover but I was visualizing myself when I don't even look like that. I'm actually really skinny and it sickened me that I didn't do more for the book by actually standing up for the big girls but instead lowered the weight to represent me somewhat and not the lady on the front cover.

I'm African American so I kept to what I knew and I love my urban books don't get me wrong (Wattpad needs to get it a section) but I limited myself and thought urban was just thugs and love and cliché. In actuality, I love all kinds of books just about but I was afraid I couldn't relate or do go enough or too much black would show.

What's going to be happening to the books?

Since Wattpad wont let me just download my book, I have to go through and manually copy each chapter to a word document which will take forever in my opinion so the books will be left up her for a few months, maybe even a year. However this account will be terminated as soon as all books are copied onto my computer.

 What about you?

I love to write and that's what I'm going to continue to do but I needed a fresh start. I did the absolute most on this account. I wasn't doing what I needed to do (interact with you guys, post more, actually being here) but more so the stuff that wasn't necessary (asking for votes and comments all the time, being rude sometimes, just not being on). All of this started happening once I felt...relevant. It makes me laugh at myself at my stupidity really thinking I was somebody. 

I'm taking a step back and going to my old ways. Actually writing before posting. following a schedule and making my works more real with less author input and childish things such as child-like author's note and characters. Basically a lot needs working on.

What about us?

I LOVE EACH AND EVERY ONE OF MY READERS WHOLE HEARTILY....yet I'm leaving you hanging with my stories. Sadly no one will know  what will happen in the books WGTTL/CAA/LOVELY and NO they will not be re-uploaded. They are the past in my eyes. Stories may come really close but they are not coming back, only mere inspiration. 

I know this is a slap in the face and its okay to be angry but I just hope at least the few who will still rock with me will give me a little time to conjure up more beautiful stories than my current ones and follow my new account:

@I_amLovely

Any more questions, concerns, or commentary can be messaged/commented/put on my message board.

It's a new day and new beginning. I hope you will join me.

and I apologize for leaving you hanging but bigger and better are to come. 

God Bless.