Andrew

25

~ I walked to the mirror and looked at myself. Ofcourse he doesn't like you, he probably never did. "Look at those eyes, they are not blue enough. Look at this noise, too big. Look at those lips, too small. And look at this eyebrows, too different. I am not enough" i whispered against myself. A tear rolling down my cheek. "You are more than enough" a voice said behind me. I turned around and saw.....~

My dad. "Your eyes are the most beautiful eyes I know. Your noise is perfect shaped and a perfect size. Your lips are perfectly sized. And your eyebrows fits perfectly by your face. You are more than enough" My dad said. "Who broke your heart so deeply?" My dad said. "I don't know" i whispered. "What is going on lately? You seem.... so far away?" My dad said. My dad was right, i am so different now. Why? First times I saw Shawn everything was just fine. What did change? Nothing..."I just have to figure things out" I said. "If you need me, I am here for you. But never say that your not enough again. You are more than enough. Not only to me, but to everyone who knows you." My dad said making me smile.
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"I dont know dad, but thank you" I said and gave him a smile. "Is it because of Shawn that you feel like this? Did something happen?" My dad asked. "Dad i want to do some things alone. I know i can trust you and i know you are here for me. But some problems i want to figure out by myself. Thats how life works" I said making my dad nod. "I understand, i love you" my dad said. "I love you too dadda" i said. "And if you think that tour will be too much for you, tell me." My dad said. "Thank you but, I will fix it before tour" I said. My dad smiled at me. "I am so proud of what you became" my dad said. I smiled at him. "Thank you" I said. He smiled and gave me a kiss on my cheek. Than he walked out my room, letting me sitting there thinking about what I have to do. Sometimes it all gets a little too much came in my head. A tear rolled down my cheek. Wtf happened to me? What happened to the girl who always could be happy and positive? Yes i had a dark time a long time ago, the reason Shawn wrote  A little too much after my dad told him. But i thought i would never feel like that okay.... but right now, i feel like that. "Am i enough?" I whispered against myself.
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I walked to my bathroom and took a long shower. I put my hair in a braid and put my PJ on. I go inside my bed and grab my phone. I texted Sarah and opened all my snaps. Checked Insta and than a tear rolled down my cheek. Show posted a new photo. Why did that tear roll? Because he looks amazing. Inside and outside. He is amazing. And it hurts that I would never have him. Even if he likes me, there will always be a thing that will hold me back. If it isn't him, it will be me. "What did he do?" I whispered to myself. I laid my phone away and made myself comfortable in bed. I felt really soon in a deep sleep. I waked up because of a voice. "Yes I will ask her" My dad said and i saw that he put his phone away. "Goodmorning" I said. My dad turned around and smiled at me. "Goodmorning" My dad said. "To who was you talking?" I asked. "Oh uhh nothing." He said. I looked confused. "First breakfast" He said. I nodded and followed him to the kitchen. We sat down and eated some food. "So what was on the phone?" I asked. "Oh uhh Shawn called me" My dad said. I looked at him, confused. "Yeah so?" I said. "Well i had to ask if you wanted to go with me to the studio. So we can prepare for tour" My dad said. "Yeah thats no problem" i said. My dad smiled. "Alright" My dad said. 
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I walked to my room and did my hair in a new braid. I put a cute compfy outfit on and walked downstairs. My dad grabbed the car keys and we go inside his car. We arrived at the studio and walked inside. "Hey!" Shawn said when he saw us. He gave my dad a hug and he gave me also one. "Lets go" Shawn said happy and we walked to the studio. Me and Shawn sang some songs. After a while we decided to take a break. I sat down in the eat area with Shawn. My dad had to do some other stuff. "So...." Shawn said.