SOFT BUN || markhyuck

30.

In life, people tend to take power over everything they can. If you don't make a decision for yourself, others do it for you. Life teaches you everything one can possibly need. And for survival, you must learn to fight for yourself, even with the ones you love.

At times, even if you have the confidence to stand up for yourself, there is always once to bring you down.

Money.

For people like Master Katsu, money is the power, strength, and everything to bring someone to their knees. Even to his own son. I was ashamed, for having such words leave my mouth. This disgusting dog did not even deserve to be called a father, husband, or even close to human. To remove such filth from the face of this world, I needed what he didn't have.

A plan.

Because for a mere servant like me- in ripped clothes, bruised mind and body, and never having enough to eat- I needed more than just that. I needed the boy who stood on the porch on the house, gaze fixed on the brutal event taking place in front of the gate.

Five minutes...

It had been only five minutes, and I'm sure everyone felt like I did. It was as if our last hope in survival, just walked out those doors. When the guards gripped his hair and dragged him back to the house, I closed my eyes. Master Haechan kept screaming. Crying. Begging for Minhyung. Like all of us, he knew what will happen. How much longer will all of us be able to take this...

Nature itself was quiet, witnessing it all in hiding. Can someone bear the violence as long as it's not done to them? I was going crazy in this household. The screams... they never stopped. It was either me doing it or someone else.

The guards held the arms of the boy, as Master Katsu held on to his hair, pull it so he would look him in the eye. He slapped him hard.

'You dare behave like this?' he spat.

Slapping again. Each time grabbing his hair to turn his face back to him and slapped again.

'You dare act like a filthy street dog in my house!' master haechan jolted to the other side because of the slap. Reaching his hand out to grip on to the material of the one doing the dirty deed to him.

The guards were ordered to hold him in place, threatened about the same done to them, and he continued. Hand covered in blood. Each sound of the slap echoed, even in the open space. No one dared to move a muscle. No one dared to lift an eye. The boy was now choking on his own blood, not having any strength to even hold himself on his knees anymore. If it wasn't for the grip on his arms, he would've been laying in the dirt a while back.

In the end, however, he gripped his hair between his fingers, pulling him to the porch. Dragging him all the way inside his own lounge. No one ever dared to go there. It was never set in limits.

But to this very grass underneath my feet, which I stood on, we all stood on, the screams could be heard.

Each time the whip hit the skin, he screamed more and more.

The piece of bread I managed to eat today, swirled in my stomach, making me gag. I covered my mouth, clenching my fingers tight, yet I couldn't hold it in. So, I ran to the bushes near and threw out the only food that I could put in my stomach.

Everyone left. Having the plans of avoiding any glimpse of themselves till late evening to the Master.

When I got on my feet, to the direction of the house, Jeno was no longer there. My vision froze on the gate, far away, from where I stood. And even though no one was here to stop me from running out, the conditions afterward of me getting caught scared me more. I could no longer do this.

The hard and smooth surface of the wooden chair underneath my feet felt cold. I was alone in the room. Not mine. Cheeks covered with tears, which I never bothered wiping. There was no point in doing it. I choked on a sob, not knowing what I was crying for, as I clenched my fingers on the rope around my neck.

This life? Was I crying for the life I lived? Or for the one I couldn't?

Who cares...

Closing my eyes, I inhaled, exhaling slowly. Without having any other thought, I pushed the chair hard, hanging myself to death.

Forgive me.

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