SOFT BUN || markhyuck

12.

'That brat..'

As I jumped off of the porch I looked around desperately, trying to take notice of very possible path way he could've ran off to. But the only place I had a good feeling about was the one we went on and ran there. I hoped I was right. A part of me didn't want the kid to be left alone so I ran as fast as I could. Of course I didn't go much far as I began to lose breath since I never ran. I felt like I was getting to old for someone who was only 24.. well turning 24 soon. I never realized that I never asked the kid about his birthday. I mean would it be alright to ask? After all I heard he doesn't have a mother. What if I mention something bad from the past that could trigger his memory or something. Also since when was I this caring for someone? The fuck.

'Haechan!'

I called out to the boy every now and then. Soon drops of cold rain started pouring now I was getting worried. I heard Jaemin's voice calling out to him as well from somewhere between the forest. Mini forest to make it rather more assuring to the heart the fact that this was still his house I was in. Even after being this deep inside the woods. I was drenched in rain from head to toe and my teeth trembled as I ran in the cold breeze.

It got dark since the clouds covered almost the whole sky making it look as if it would be night soon when in surprise it was just during the afternoon. Okay maybe it was close to night but whatever let's me sleep at night after reminding myself that I'll get a good nights rest if I do my job right and not to forget the money.

I ran and ran and fucking ran.

I wasn't going to get mad at him or anything since it wasn't even his fault well it was before all this. Now well... I was gonna freaking bury him when I got my hands on him. I shouted with all my might as I stopped dead in my track finally. 'LEE-fucking-Haechan!' By now I had no idea where I was.

The sound of rain drops hitting the top leaves of the trees which were surrounding me gave this homey feeling and for a second as I closed my eyes and took a deep breath it felt calm and relaxing and... ouch-

Something hard and small came in contact with the back of my head. I turned around as I rubbed the part that got hit. My vision didn't even focus on what or who it was yet and I was attack to the ground and apparently it wasn't a every good choice made by whoever it was since when I rolled over apparently there was a hill.. the rest like in every damn movie or drama you see in happened and by now my back hit the rough ground hard with the other over me. I groaned and tried to get up, now weighting myself on my arms and looked up to the brats face. He didn't look good. Instantly, before I could even say his name to get his attention over the fact that I was mad at him for weird reasons one of which was he made me run so much- he hugged me.

I'll be honest to you hoes that I was most definitely not expecting something like that from him. Sure I heard he was clingy but I wasn't. Skin contact was not in my favour. As my left hand gripped a good amount of his shirt from the back to pull him away loud sobs stopped me from moving an inch further. I have never heard anyone cry like this.. so desperately and full of emotion? I could feel his tears run down the side of my neck and into the back of my shirt. I sat up straight wrapping arm around his waist while the other patted his back slowly. The rain was getting bad but it felt like he had no plans on moving anytime soon and of course he was not gonna let me move either.

Since I was little from the time my mother died and auntie took me in, she just filled the roll of her being there as someone who knew me or who knew who I belonged to so I was never given the full taste of motherly love. I had no idea how else to put it as. He was crying hard, I wanted to ask what happened? why was he awake after I put him to bed? or was it that he was never really asleep? If he was did he wake up to the sound me and Kim heard? and what was his father talking about?

When I realized that this wasn't going stop and I had to do something, the first thing I thought of was go somewhere private- his room and as I dry him up will tell each other what happened. I snaked my arm under his butt and stood up hugging him tight as he hugged me back like a koala. 'Say something,' I whispered to him when he calmed down a bit. I walked back to the house slowly, I wanted to talk whatever happened before we go there. That would be a lot better. I felt his grip on my back tighten and he nuzzled himself further into my neck. Okay... this is not going to work.

'I can't help you if you don't say something you know,' I notified softly. The kid wan't in the best of condition at the moment so I tried not to burst out on him further worsening the situation which could end up with one of us being killed. I'm just kidding... okay maybe I'm not, you'll never know right?

I signed loud when I still didn't get a reply. By now the path seemed familiar to me. The rain was still in the same condition. Maybe a bit worse but it wasn't like we were in a hurry or something at least that's what I thought.

'you promised,' I barely caught what he said, as his voice came out muffled.

'About what are we talking?'

'you have to keep me safe,' and my heart skipped a beat as I clenched my eyeds tight reminding myself about the promised I made that was meant to be broken sooner or later.

'But I'm keeping you safe, am I not?'

'no..'

'No?'

'Don't make me go..' he spoke one word at a time. Since he was finally talking I took a seat on the bench that Kim sat on a while back. Moving him away from me on the bench with his face towards mine I made him look at me facing his chin up.

'Where am I making you go?' I kept my voice soft. I wanted to get out of him as much as I could. 'hm?'

'That man.. don't make Haechan go to him.' his eyes started to tear up again. I moved away frustrated and stood up.

'Did he say something to you? Tell me.. I'll- I'll talk to him,'

He panicked. His eyes getting glossy with every passing second. He stood up too walking to me. I didn't realize what was going on. Did I miss out on something?

'Don't make--' he gulped the hard lump in his throat as he continued '--me go, you can't' he shook his head side to side as the tears now made there way down his cheeks. I inhaled as much air as I could. Rubbing my face with the palm of my right hand. His hiccups were not helping me in understanding the situation in peace. I took his cheeks in my hands and pulled him half way as I took a step by the rest.

'Listen to me.. carefully,' I shook him. Bringing him to his senses. 'You're gonna go, and that's that.. I don't care about anything else-'

I walked away. 'Hell with the promise, god you're so annoying,'

To say what was going to happen in the near future because of the decision I made right at this moment, I'll admit honestly... I made a pretty huge mistake.